*~*Princess*~*

The Hell, This Is My Life!
2002-04-02 00:09:30 (UTC)

I just got back from my..

I just got back from my doctor....my dad had to take me
so I could get in quicker. She said somthin about me not
having enough body fat and working out to much when I have
no food in my stomach. My abs started hurting really bad
after I finished working out.....that's what I do when I
get mad or depressed, my dad or coachs won't even have to
ask me to work out, I just do it. So when I got done, I
told my dad they were hurting, and like right after that, I
threw up. It was all water though, I hadn't eaten anything
all day. Don't get me wrong or anything, I do eat, just
not as much as I should. I'm afraid of getting fat I guess
you could say. I don't wanna have to shop in the "big and
tall" store. Right now I'm a size 5....they said I should
be at least a 7 or 8 for my height. You could also say
that I'm afraid of guys not thinking I'm cute if I'm big.
I think that's what got me started working out....then my
dad got into it. Now my mom is like all on my back about
eating what they told me to eat. She even stoped by the
store on the way home to pick up steak. I haven't eaten
steak in like months, maybe even a year. Today has just
been horriable....I want Corey to just come home and hold
me. I want him to stay in N.C. while I'm up there. I want
to hold him till the end of time and never let go. Oh
well....my mom is actually letting me go to a party
tonight!!!! So I have to go eat and get ready




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