spitfire

what to fucking write ok Im on..

what to fucking write ok Im on total burn out status I
guess dont know dont care next pay check will be about
$2000 thats a G a week which out here is unreal
Schools done finals last week which just killed my scedule
but Im fucking up I know cause the last few days I just
been hanging out with this girl who I should probly cut
loose asap but who knows? I was gonna smash to the casa
last night and get some sleep and not kick it with girly
but the little one was there the one from the last entry
and I was thinking how often does she get to go out and do
what ever she wants till five in the morning,So I gave her
like ten bucks for some candy and shit and sent her and
girly to the store and when I got off at like two fucking
little one was flying off the sugar and we took her ass the
the nugget and she made fun of all the tweekers and just
everything in sight I cant even explain how funny this
little one is but Id probly rather kick it with her than
girly. I was writing before about this X b/f she has and
what have you, so I guess he was talking mad shit about me
or what ever, Shes like I never see him raw raw raw and
anyways dudes at the house at like 900 this morning,
So we all crashed out on the couch me girly and the
little one I get up shes gone I thought I saw dude come in
to but I was half asleep so I get up cause Im thinking dude
might wanna chunk em you know I kinda like dude to cause
hes hella respectful to her at least in front of me anyways
he didnt have shit to say to me nothing just looked away
from me the whole time so thats cool cause Im not really
trying to catch a violation over some lame and some ratthead
but hey for everyone out there if you got somthing to say
about someone say it to there face or if you say some
madcap shit about some one next time you see them handle it
cause everything else is just weak,
So heres where I guess this is going so dude sees Im up
and he says his goodbyes and as soon as he leaves she all
on me kissing me and trying to snuggle up all close and run
some excuses about why he was there?
A few things:first she was like all nerviuos why? I dont
care if dudes there. 2 she wasnt trying to get all close
like that when dude was there.then she runs all this drag
about dude just comming over cause he was all heart broke
over his X wife. And that dude had come over whjen I was
there before to see her,cause when he came by that night he
just ran a bunch of drag about why he was there.
Ok so heres how I see it first off I dont give a fuck
If she likes dude sweet but dont talk a bunch of shit about
how fucked up he is to me then be all funking cool with him
when he comes by,and if hes still all in the picture there
doesnt have to be any bullshit Im cool she dont gotta
choose between us lord knows shes not the girlfriend and
everyone knows I wont give up my coffie shop girly for her
or anyone else I meet along the way,so whats the trip.
and all that waiting till he leave then getting all close
and trying to play me close Im cool with that like dude
doesnt know what time it is with us,there was just somthing
to sketchy about how it all went down. so im probly gonna
have to say Im cool with the whole thing.I live pretty much
in brutal honesty and anything but that to me is straight
drama and I wont have it.
Heres one last note she doesnt work or go to school and
she cant seem to grasp that Im trying to conquer the world
(shelby honey Im not talking about you are fucking rad.)
so she doesnt get the whole prioritys thing.

anyuways just had to write about somthing why not that
I am burned out cause things that usally seem cute or
charming seem to jiust be annoying me.
Im in a good mood though got some ska playing in the box
and shit all good
with love