chiqueta

Shanna's Space
2002-03-29 13:16:55 (UTC)

feeling empty

I'm still trying to get used to you not being in my life
the way you were before. I miss you. We had a great
conversation last night, even though it was only due to a
needed apology. I'm glad we talked, and I'm glad we got
more things out in the open. But we still aren't together
and it makes me sad. I want to hold you like I used to,
and I want to be able to tell you how much I love you. I
don't understand why I can't have you. I can't understand
why you would do something that brought you so much pain
also. You keep saying this is something you needed, but
how much freakin time do you need? I'm not going to wait
forever, and I wanted to walk away forever yesterday after
talking to Jess. None of this is her fault, but I was
pissed at you and wanted to leave you forever. But I
didn't think you would come back. I didn't think you would
care that I was gone. It would be what you wanted anyway,
right?




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