b. tindle

this stuff is real
2002-03-29 06:03:15 (UTC)

intro

you know what.the hell with women.i say that now but give a
little while.you see i was in a relationship about 3-4
weeks ago, and the girl i was going out with was really
awesome.well i ended up falling for her very quickly and i
said the l word like 3 weeks into the relationship and i
normally would feel really stupid about that but i got it
back.now im thinking alright.we're going somewhere.yeah.we
had a lot of fun together and things went very smooth it
was almost too good to be true.(well guess what idiot it
was otherwise you wouldnt be writing this right now)sorry a
little comic relief in for this serious topic.anyways,about
a month and a half goes by and things start changing.dont
ask me how cause i still havent figured this out.anyways we
broke up right when i was planning to start doing more and
better things with her because things did get kind of
boring.it takes two to make something like that work and
the thing that realized all too late was that you cant work
twice as hard to make up slack.it doesnt work i learned the
hard way.now i really want to know what you guys think of
this.tell me if im insane or just lovestruck/sick.see im
thinking this wouldnt be like this if i hadnt been gunned
down in my prime.everytime i see her or hear her voice my
heart skips a beat.now given im not like nervous around her
but man.ok this is really weird.everytime i close my eyes i
see her or i see HER CAR tell me that isnt messed up.her
car.wow.lifespring here i come kidding i think.i still
every bit as strong as i did when she my g/f if not
stronger.i want her back but obtaining that goal will be
what i think is impossibe but you know weirder things have
happened.not much weirder but .....you know it is just a
excuse me for this but it is a fucked-up world.ok thank you
to my friends jamie for keepnig me grounded and being my
person to confide in.you are a sister.nick,man you have not
become one of my best friends you are my best friend.man
you dont know.i would take a bullet for you dude.you are
more than a brother to me.alma,you are the nicest person
out there.you dont know what you mean to me.i am very sorry
i cant do this in person but im not like that.well thats it
for now.ummmmmm..........oh and to m.you know who you
are.you are who this entry was about.i dont think you have
any idea what you have done.i had a lot of air in that
balloon of feelings and the needle you had struck it very
very very hard.in your case i wont get revenge.like i said
i still love you.
Brandon




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