rbebe178

LIFE (or something like it)
2002-03-27 06:32:54 (UTC)

the life that is not mine.

Hi, i am 14, I live in Wisconsin, and my name is not Rachel.
If you should so happen to have looked up this diary to
find rbebe178's diary as you once did you will never find
it, or her...because she doesnt exist. Don't get me wrong,
she didnt die or anything, but i was pretending to be this
character instead of myself. Most things I said were based
on truth and that was my voice on Kat's voicemail and I do
think Kat is a super cool girl but i'm sure she wont think
i am super cool once she finds this out. Haha, i realize
it makes me seem supremly strange in an almost stalkerish
way...omg, im really not that. I would love to talk to her
again but i guess it would be too weird. My sn is
Breezygal17...thats right, i was being Summer too. But i
blocked KAt and Adam's sn's...if Kat is readin this and for
some odd reason actually still wants to talk to me then
thatd be wicked...all she'd have to do is email me and tell
me she knows and i would unblock her. Its sort of, like,
beyond embarrassing though. ha, i mean i dont know if she
guessed it already but...the fact that i had that fake
persona could be very much interpreted as fucking insane.
The thing is, a lot of people lie about there age
online...and that is how it all began. "hey, a/s/l?" "uh,
18/f/fl" i mean really how is that weird? everyone has
done it. But then there comes "pic?" and "...sure"
*frantic search online for picture* .....I mean, it just
got out of control. I had this new life at my finger tips,
one that i could make be what i wanted. I had a big house
in miami, 3 sisters, ivy leauge acceptances adn a hott
boyfriend. Not to mention this really cool friend, Kat.
Well yea so she wanted to call and thats when i thought, i
really should start living my life and not making something
else up. Theres no Breanna Summer, Rachel marie, Ava
Katharina or Ariel Dawn (well actually my real older
sisters name is Ariel Dawn...but thats besides the
point).My name is Breanna Katharina (bree thing is real)
OMG KAT I can't believe myself!!!! It was totally
pathetic!!! I mean I was first doing it to impress some guy
i didnt know (adam) and then u IM me and I didnt think
anything of it untill i realized how cool you were! Like,
omg I love talkin to her shes so much like me! And then im
like...i cant have this fake friendship, this is totally
out of hand. So i decided to end our communication. I
supposed I could have told you this all through IM but...i
mean, its just so weird and I figure you dont wanna talk to
me. For real though Kat, I'm not really that wierd, i am a
normal girl. Im a freshman in highschool, I dance, I get
good grades, I have a lot of friends im pretty cute, im
just your average girl havin a little too much fun. And
the person you talked to online really was me. So...if you
ever wanna talk to her again, just send me an
[email protected], yeah, that'd be cool.




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