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Afipunkgodess (9:38:16 PM): hey..

Afipunkgodess (9:38:16 PM): hey
BigBenUSA5 (9:38:20 PM): yo!
Afipunkgodess (9:38:30 PM): sup dawg?
BigBenUSA5 (9:40:38 PM): nmjc u?
Afipunkgodess (9:40:50 PM): ummm
Afipunkgodess (9:40:53 PM): jc kinda
Afipunkgodess (9:40:57 PM): im all doped up
Afipunkgodess (9:40:58 PM): haha
Afipunkgodess (9:41:14 PM): on medication mind you , not
drugs
BigBenUSA5 (9:41:18 PM): lol u silly!
Afipunkgodess (9:41:20 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (9:44:43 PM): so hows life
BigBenUSA5 (9:46:08 PM): pretty okish u?
Afipunkgodess (9:46:24 PM): sucks
Afipunkgodess (9:46:26 PM): i make it suck
Afipunkgodess (9:46:28 PM): though
Afipunkgodess (9:46:33 PM): i could have a better outlook
Afipunkgodess (9:46:37 PM): i just dont
BigBenUSA5 (9:47:46 PM): i sowwy
Afipunkgodess (9:47:56 PM): awww dont be
Afipunkgodess (9:48:02 PM): 's not your fault
Afipunkgodess (9:48:04 PM): never is
BigBenUSA5 (9:48:33 PM): i know it ain't but i want u 2 be
happy
Afipunkgodess (9:50:09 PM): thx...
Afipunkgodess (9:50:15 PM): what is happiness anyways?
BigBenUSA5 (9:50:43 PM): um as state of mind
BigBenUSA5 (9:50:46 PM): just like fear
Afipunkgodess (9:51:14 PM): does the body do anything when
its happy?
Afipunkgodess (9:51:25 PM): could happiness be stimulated?
BigBenUSA5 (9:54:38 PM): yeah i thinkAfipunkgodess (9:55:20 PM): is
existance a state of mind?
Afipunkgodess (9:55:24 PM): i think, therefore i am?
BigBenUSA5 (9:55:31 PM): well your body gives off
endorphins when it feels good
BigBenUSA5 (9:55:40 PM): yeah mind of body
BigBenUSA5 (9:55:44 PM): over body*
Afipunkgodess (9:55:52 PM): lol
BigBenUSA5 (9:57:23 PM): um maybe self physical stimulation
Afipunkgodess (9:57:47 PM): i dont understand
BigBenUSA5 (9:58:26 PM): um when u run, etc
BigBenUSA5 (9:58:44 PM): your brain rewards itself w/
endorphins
Afipunkgodess (9:59:43 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (9:59:45 PM): how
BigBenUSA5 (9:59:59 PM): your brain produces it
BigBenUSA5 (10:00:07 PM): it is your bodies reward system
Afipunkgodess (10:01:05 PM): why though
BigBenUSA5 (10:01:37 PM): so u take care of your bod
Afipunkgodess (10:02:16 PM): so im controlled by my body
Afipunkgodess (10:02:24 PM): feelings i have are
controlled by my body
Afipunkgodess (10:02:34 PM): and if i live by my feelings,
im living by my body
BigBenUSA5 (10:02:48 PM): u r in control that is correct
BigBenUSA5 (10:03:03 PM): but your bod does some things
just involentary like to survive
BigBenUSA5 (10:03:06 PM): breating......
Afipunkgodess (10:03:41 PM): im not in control
Afipunkgodess (10:03:47 PM): My body is
Afipunkgodess (10:03:48 PM): because
Afipunkgodess (10:03:53 PM): it makes me have emotion
Afipunkgodess (10:04:01 PM): and emotion influences me
BigBenUSA5 (10:04:08 PM): it is all whta u tell yourself
Afipunkgodess (10:04:11 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:04:25 PM): but what i tell myself is
controlled by my body, isnt it?
BigBenUSA5 (10:04:58 PM): it goes threw YOUR mind 1st
Afipunkgodess (10:05:37 PM): how do you know?
Afipunkgodess (10:05:44 PM): what if your body is telling
your mind to say that
Afipunkgodess (10:05:44 PM): haha
BigBenUSA5 (10:05:52 PM): naw mind is in control
Afipunkgodess (10:07:33 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:07:42 PM): thats what your body wants
you to think~!
Afipunkgodess (10:07:44 PM): im tellin ya...
Afipunkgodess (10:07:49 PM): *jk
Afipunkgodess (10:07:54 PM): im sorry im in an arguing mood
Afipunkgodess (10:07:57 PM): i think its the medication
BigBenUSA5 (10:08:13 PM): lol funny stuff
BigBenUSA5 (10:10:02 PM): jen?
Afipunkgodess (10:10:53 PM): sorry
Afipunkgodess (10:10:55 PM): no i havent
Afipunkgodess (10:11:02 PM): so many people have imed me
all at once
Afipunkgodess (10:11:03 PM): its like woah
Afipunkgodess (10:11:10 PM): and then im trying to write a
poem
Afipunkgodess (10:11:12 PM): ahhh
Afipunkgodess (10:11:13 PM): no i havent
BigBenUSA5 (10:12:53 PM): feel good look good= happy
Afipunkgodess (10:13:19 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:13:20 PM): why?
Afipunkgodess (10:13:27 PM): that seems too easy
Afipunkgodess (10:13:37 PM): too shallow
BigBenUSA5 (10:13:41 PM): it is that easy
Afipunkgodess (10:13:43 PM): dont takeoffense
Afipunkgodess (10:13:47 PM): it cant be
Afipunkgodess (10:13:51 PM): i like things complicated!
BigBenUSA5 (10:14:21 PM): it can be hard for
Afipunkgodess (10:14:30 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:14:33 PM): but not complicated
Afipunkgodess (10:15:31 PM): ?
BigBenUSA5 (10:16:04 PM): keep life simple
Afipunkgodess (10:16:18 PM): i should
Afipunkgodess (10:16:19 PM): but i cant
Afipunkgodess (10:16:23 PM): its too easy/hard simple
Afipunkgodess (10:16:27 PM): i cant live with simplicity
BigBenUSA5 (10:17:05 PM): try it keeping it simple
Afipunkgodess (10:18:09 PM): i cant
Afipunkgodess (10:18:12 PM): thats my lil prob
Afipunkgodess (10:18:17 PM): i complicate things
BigBenUSA5 (10:18:25 PM): i dunno i think u can
Afipunkgodess (10:19:39 PM): why would it be better simple?
BigBenUSA5 (10:19:52 PM): less 2 go wrong
Afipunkgodess (10:20:18 PM): what does it matter, we die
anyways
Afipunkgodess (10:20:21 PM): what could go wrong
Afipunkgodess (10:20:25 PM): its all about endorphins
Afipunkgodess (10:20:26 PM): haha
BigBenUSA5 (10:20:42 PM): life is 2 shot!
BigBenUSA5 (10:20:46 PM): short*
BigBenUSA5 (10:20:47 PM): live it!
BigBenUSA5 (10:20:51 PM): have fun!!
Afipunkgodess (10:20:56 PM): in simplicity
!?
Afipunkgodess (10:20:59 PM): it cant be that easy
BigBenUSA5 (10:20:59 PM): i dunno
Afipunkgodess (10:21:14 PM): i dont want physical things for
happiness
Afipunkgodess (10:21:16 PM): i want something else
Afipunkgodess (10:21:20 PM): something that i dont have
Afipunkgodess (10:21:23 PM): and i want to be content
Afipunkgodess (10:21:26 PM): with whatever i have
BigBenUSA5 (10:21:32 PM): hmmmmmmmmmm
BigBenUSA5 (10:21:36 PM): i dunno jen
Afipunkgodess (10:21:48 PM): if i go out and
buy something or jog or whatever i may get happy but i
have to do it all over again tomorrow
Afipunkgodess (10:21:53 PM): for what purpose? endorphins?
Afipunkgodess (10:22:02 PM): but being content
Afipunkgodess (10:22:10 PM): thats something that seems so
great
Afipunkgodess (10:22:15 PM): yet hard to achieve
BigBenUSA5 (10:23:22 PM): well i think it
Afipunkgodess (10:24:25 PM): it may be
Afipunkgodess (10:24:28 PM): but its all pointless
Afipunkgodess (10:24:31 PM): it seems
Afipunkgodess (10:24:34 PM): always pointless
Afipunkgodess (10:24:42 PM): and i live just hoping that
itll come together
BigBenUSA5 (10:24:42 PM): just 2 simple for u
Afipunkgodess (10:24:44 PM): lol
BigBenUSA5 (10:24:49 PM): procreation is simple
Afipunkgodess (10:24:53 PM): yep
Afipunkgodess (10:25:00 PM): but whats behind it may not be
Afipunkgodess (10:25:03 PM): i dont know
Afipunkgodess (10:25:06 PM): i dont know anything
BigBenUSA5 (10:25:27 PM): explore exspand your horizon
Afipunkgodess (10:26:58 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:27:02 PM): with what
Afipunkgodess (10:27:09 PM): facts and figures taught by
school
Afipunkgodess (10:27:12 PM): which i sit in
Afipunkgodess (10:27:14 PM): wasting away
Afipunkgodess (10:27:19 PM): preparing for college
Afipunkgodess (10:27:24 PM): to prepare me for work
Afipunkgodess (10:27:31 PM): to prepare me for retirement
BigBenUSA5 (10:27:36 PM): silly
Afipunkgodess (10:27:39 PM): too bad i die before i retire
BigBenUSA5 (10:28:22 PM): don't die!
Afipunkgodess (10:29:04 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:29:19 PM): so what does expanding my
horizons do for me/
Afipunkgodess (10:29:20 PM): ?
Afipunkgodess (10:29:40 PM): so i learn more numbers see
more things
BigBenUSA5 (10:29:40 PM): show u what is out there
Afipunkgodess (10:29:41 PM): so what
Afipunkgodess (10:29:43 PM): whats out there
BigBenUSA5 (10:29:47 PM): the strive for knowledge
Afipunkgodess (10:29:49 PM): a bunch of fucked up people
like me
Afipunkgodess (10:29:53 PM): knoweledge of what?
BigBenUSA5 (10:30:09 PM): existence
Afipunkgodess (10:31:37 PM): what about existence
Afipunkgodess (10:31:42 PM): it ends
Afipunkgodess (10:31:47 PM): when i end i cease to exist
Afipunkgodess (10:31:48 PM): haha
Afipunkgodess (10:31:52 PM): and so does everything
Afipunkgodess (10:31:52 PM): for me
BigBenUSA5 (10:31:54 PM): make the most of it
Afipunkgodess (10:32:00 PM): how
Afipunkgodess (10:32:11 PM): by going to parties?
Afipunkgodess (10:32:16 PM): by buying shit
Afipunkgodess (10:32:20 PM): by fixing my hair
Afipunkgodess (10:32:24 PM): by getting up
Afipunkgodess (10:32:30 PM): by cleaning my room
Afipunkgodess (10:32:35 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:33:19 PM): who cares about so much physical
Afipunkgodess (10:33:23 PM): i dont understand it
BigBenUSA5 (10:33:23 PM): i do
Afipunkgodess (10:33:26 PM): im sorry
B
Afipunkgodess (10:33:28 PM): i just dont
Afipunkgodess (10:33:34 PM): well thats the point
Afipunkgodess (10:33:39 PM): but it goes away, doesnt it?
BigBenUSA5 (10:34:21 PM): adventually nothing lasts forever
BigBenUSA5 (10:34:32 PM): but it is that easy 2 get it back
Afipunkgodess (10:34:52 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:35:01 PM): but we have nothing
Afipunkgodess (10:35:04 PM): and it does last forever
Afipunkgodess (10:35:05 PM): youre right
Afipunkgodess (10:35:06 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:35:12 PM): all we have is nothing
Afipunkgodess (10:35:20 PM): and we shall have nothing
forever
BigBenUSA5 (10:35:27 PM): jen........
BigBenUSA5 (10:35:30 PM): silly
BigBenUSA5 (10:36:04 PM): just let go and go w/ it
Afipunkgodess (10:36:27 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:36:39 PM): and then what
Afipunkgodess (10:36:42 PM): so what
Afipunkgodess (10:36:50 PM): no one cares i die you die he
she it dies
Afipunkgodess (10:37:01 PM): youre not getting what im
saying are you?
BigBenUSA5 (10:37:54 PM): just live!
BigBenUSA5 (10:37:58 PM): feel alive
Afipunkgodess (10:38:03 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:38:09 PM): you have such a different
outlook
Afipunkgodess (10:38:12 PM): its amazing
Afipunkgodess (10:38:17 PM): i need to change mine
Afipunkgodess (10:38:19 PM): but i cant
Afipunkgodess (10:38:23 PM): i wont let myself
BigBenUSA5 (10:38:40 PM):
Afipunkgodess (10:39:09 PM): then again maybe not
BigBenUSA5 (10:39:30 PM): well u will never know unless u
do something u will just be there thinking what if
Afipunkgodess (10:39:56 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:40:01 PM): speculation?
Afipunkgodess (10:40:07 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:40:12 PM): what if
Afipunkgodess (10:40:20 PM): is my most overused thought
BigBenUSA5 (10:41:30 PM): thinking is good
BigBenUSA5 (10:41:45 PM): 2 much of a good thing is a bad
thing
Afipunkgodess (10:42:31 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (10:42:49 PM): good good=bad?
Afipunkgodess (10:42:52 PM): hmmm
Afipunkgodess (10:43:03 PM): or good good=2good
BigBenUSA5 (10:43:19 PM): it isn't algerbra
Afipunkgodess (10:43:38 PM): or is it?
Afipunkgodess (10:43:45 PM): we apply logic to everything
else
Afipunkgodess (10:43:46 PM): it seems
BigBenUSA5 (10:43:54 PM): or maybe it is good x -good=bad
Afipunkgodess (10:45:16 PM): lol or maybe not
Afipunkgodess (10:45:23 PM): thinking isnt always good
Afipunkgodess (10:45:26 PM): though
Afipunkgodess (10:45:50 PM): even in moderation
Afipunkgodess (10:47:18 PM): what do you think
Afipunkgodess (10:47:20 PM): about everything
Afipunkgodess (10:47:21 PM): about life
BigBenUSA5 (10:47:48 PM): life should be fun
BigBenUSA5 (10:47:54 PM): it is challengingAfipunkgodess (10:49:44
PM): lol guess so
im so ignorant
feel like an idiot...