Signe Enigma

The Signe Enigma
2002-03-27 04:31:40 (UTC)

The long and short of it.

Today I am warpath angry. I try not to get this way;
afterall, all my therapists from the past would feel like
failures if they knew I still got this mad. I quietly
bowed out from the only social circle I belonged to, so it
is official - I am a recluse. I would rather spend my time
in solitude than continue to be offended by the stupidity
of others.

So, here is the long and short of it - I am
obsessive/compulsive and I probably have some phobias. It
isn't as if I don't go to town and shop or do things I have
to do; I am just making a conscious decision to avoid as
much BS as possible, and that includes not attending a
particular social group I had been associated with.

I'm not unhappy at all. In fact, I am actually deliriously
happy with my life. I love my husband. I have beautiful
children. I am doing what I have always wanted to do,
which just so happens to mean having minimal "real" contact
with other human beings.

Most people can't handle hearing the truth, and I only
speak the truth - They call me blunt. They get offended.
I hurt their feelings. They take everything personally.
If someone asks me "Why, why, why", I tell them why in my
opinion, and my opinion is rarely popular. Life is too
short to beat around the bush and candycoat the truth. I
am sick of irresponsible people, weary of doing other's
jobs for them and then blessing their unmotivated hearts
when they are writhing in self-pity. Strife is part of the
human condition, get a clue and get on with it.

I don't want to hear any more about people trying to "find
themselves". What are you, lost? I used to run from the
past too, but it snuck ahead of me, waited in a dark alley,
and kicked my ass. Change what you don't like, but be okay
with who you are and quit whining about it. I might be a
basket case, but at least I realize it and am okay with
it.

Oh, I have all kinds of issues with the world right now -
too many to put here. Frankly, I'm giving myself a
migraine just thinking about certain people right now.
That's my real problem. I think.




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