brown eye angel

Lisa's Life
2002-03-25 14:23:59 (UTC)

Whatever...

I'm not even sure what is going on anymore... i'm so tired
and i'm losing motivation to get up in the morning. It
wouldn't be so bad if i didn't have to get up so early but
i have to be up early almost every morning. Only 25 more
days until i can start to relax. I think the stress of
school, work, placement, and volunteer and catching up with
finally. Every morning i fight this strong urge to throw
up and the muscles in my back are really tightening up. it
hurts to sit for more then 20 mins but that's what i do all
day is sit. I hate being a student. Maybe i should find a
permanment job now and start working full time instead. I
really need to do something else.
Yesterday was pretty good. Went to a high ropes course.
I'm a little disapointed though because i didn't get off
the platform except to come right back down. It was kind
of funny though. I was up there and i couldn't figure out
how to come back down. I was so scared. But at least I
made it up the tree. It was really high. Looks less high
from the ground, but once you are up there it is totally a
different story. My hands are sore today from yesterday.
A few cuts and bruises on them but other than that they are
fine.
What do i do about T? He's driving me crazy. When it gets
late and i need to go home i usually have to start bugging
him way before i want to leave just so i can get home at a
decent time. I'm so sick of always having to do that. I
just wish that a few times T would realize that i need to
go home and get more sleep then he does. I hate nagging.
Just want to be able to go home when i want without being a
nag about it.
i'm thinking about going home and sleeping for the rest of
the day but i have a stupid meeting to go to at noon.
Within 30 days everyone is coming home for the summer
(expet T who goes back to school) and i'm not sure if i'm
looking forward to it or if i'm dreading it. I made a huge
mistake last week which will make things ackward, but then
things were going to be ackward even before that e-mail
went out. I'm wondering if everyone is going to come back
home and expect things to be like they were when we were in
high school. I hope not. That would suck considering the
fact that we aren't in high school anymore.
IT"S FREEZING IN THE THIS STUPID SCHOOL. My hands are
purple, i'm shacking uncontrollably trying to stay warm.
They have cold air coming out of the vents. This is
probably one of the reason why I'm always so cold. It
seems as if i can't warm up ever. At home, school, work,
anywhere i go i'm cold. Must get warm. Wish it was warm.
I should end this here since it is so long. I should leave
something to complain about for the next one.
~Angel~




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