megan

listen to my silences
2002-03-25 05:25:56 (UTC)

betrayal

i feel like i've betrayed you
i hear you when you say i haven't
but haven't i?
how can you say i haven't?
yeah, you trust me
i know
but i haven't earned it
i don't think i have
i'm scared of losing you
of screwing it all up
of you walking away and never looking back
of hurting you
of so many things
i'm strong because i have to be
i don't have a choice
you do and yet you don't see the strength you have inside
i see it
and why you use it on me i don't have a clue
but i'm glad you are
i love you so much
it scares me cause i never have felt this way before
ever
and i am afraid of losing it
that i don't show it often enough or well enough
or worse, that i'll betray you
which i think i have
and i don't know how to fix it
i love you
i love you
i love you
i'm scared

final thought: come what may, come what may, i will love you until my
dying day