thestreetspirit

Pandora's Aquarium
2002-03-25 01:25:44 (UTC)

... on how the thoughts of others affect me

So, one of my roommates biggest problems with her (kind of
ex) boyfriend is that he hasn't given her enough attention
lately, doesn't tell her she's beautiful or things like
that... Now, why am I thinking that my boyfriend is
starting to drift... pay less attention to me... that I
can't keep him around long enough... it's been a fucking
week, for fuck's sake... I am so insecure, I wonder why
anyone would want to be with me, with all these
insecurities, why would anyone want me??!!??
YES, I am being completly unreasonnable and selfish, yes I
am. This is stupid... I am letting her saddness rub off on
me... I didn't want to do this, feel her pain, and that
made me feel guilty, not feeling it... now that I have, I
am paranoid. Shit, this is sooo stupid. Ok, now you can
ignore me, more importantly this entry. Don't ignore me.
I think I'm done now... carry on with your lives...




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