Angel

It'll get better.. right?
2002-03-23 17:26:33 (UTC)

Morning Sucks!

I am so tired.. my parents woke me up that ask if my dad
could borrow my car.. I said ok and then rolled over and
went back to sleep.. then my cell phone rang.. it's Jason..
he's been up since 7am ( It's 10am here) He's not going out
of town.. goody.. now I can talk to him.. if only I could
see him.. he's too busy moving all his crap back into his
parents house.. I'm gonna miss his apartment.. we had
alotof fun there..
Last nite Jason and I got to talking.. He said that he
thinks that one of us is going to hurt the other really
bad.. he said it was a feeling that he had and he couldnt
get rid of.. I dont think we will hurt each other.. I
think he is thinking this because this is his longest
relationship.. and the first girl he "loved" (Angela)
cheated on him.. then Daphnne took off to college without
saying one word to him.. I know that he still thinks about
Daphnne.. after all.. he did choose her over me at one
point.. the only reason he chose her was because she liked
getting stoned.. I dont even wanna mess with drugs..
Daphnne was someone who Jason could get stoned with and
party with.. I also think that he chose her because she was
so pretty.. I mean.. she was a hell of alot thinner than
me.. everyone tells me I am not fat.. but I dont believe
them.. I know I could stand to lose a few pounds.. hell..
even my own mother tells me I need to lose weight.. my
stepmom says that I need to "tone up".. which is a nice way
of saying.. " Lose weight" Grrr.. Life is so depressing..
Its too early for me to be awake.. especially when I have
to work tonite.. I am going to try and sneak back into
bed.. maybe no one will notice.. they never do.




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