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elijah
2002-03-22 01:55:15 (UTC)

the ups and downs of a college student

First let me start by saying that the past day and a half i
truly felt like a college student. It is not my custom to
stay up all night studying but, just for fun, i thought i'd
try it last night. I studied til 5 am at clics before
coming home to sleep a little before going back to school
for a couple more hours of studying prior to my 3pm final.
Going into the final i felt really confident and though i
haven't been doing well in this class (paul, inventing
christianity) i was sure this would go well. The final
went really well...or at least i think...and as i strode
down the aisle to turn it in i felt a sense of
accomplishment..felt like a college student...like i'd
studied late..studied some more..and did well on my test.
Anyways...so things were excellent up until i picked up my
paper that i turned in last week. On my first paper i got
a C and was bummed but decided i was over it. This time i
sincerely thought i wrote a good paper...or at least better
than the last one...D , ouch. yah, so my stride down the
aisle was great...8 seconds later coming the other way was
not as fun. Anyways..this is actually fitting...kind of
like the icing on the cake of what God's been doing with me
this entire quarter. He is teaching me about surrender..to
give everything to Him...and i feel like i've successfully
been doing this. This quarter i've tried harder than ever
with my schoolwork but the grades have simply not come like
i had originially hoped...but God is constant my friends.
I can honestly say the past few months i've had this sort
of incident occur several times and everytime God has been
faithful in just giving me peace of mind about it almost
immediately...i'm over it..it even surprises me cause if
you'd have asked me prior to my getting my paper how i
would react if i got that grade i'd have said i'd be
majorly bummin'...but somehow it's just not there. And i
think that has come from just continually surrendering
everything to Him, getting on my knees, being humble before
the Lord. Indeed, when i think about it...i'd much rather
have that peace (phil 4:6-7?)that surpasses all
understanding no matter what i face than to do well at
something but always want something better...did that make
sense? anyways, all that to say that God is faithful...i
was listening to switchfoot on my way home from the final
and once again their words just speak to me..."i turn
everything over i turn myself in..", "and all my
sandcastles spend their time collapsing.." "you're my only
hope.." "...i threw it all away with everything to gain
and you take it from me..with dreams or shrinking
yah..dreams of shrinking yaaah..." some of those are self
explanatory, others not as much perhaps..i will not try to
explain here. anyhow...i am done with finals now and am
stoked on that...i pray that God is faithful in your life
as he is in mine :-) peace...




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