y2jailbait

So New, So Wierd

Its been awhile since i last wrote in this journal. Since
the last time i wrote, i really havent gotten over jessica.
Everytime i see her smile, it makes me feel so bad at the
shit i put her though. It makes me mad at the fact that i
cant ever make her smile like that. She has the most
incredible smile ive ever seen. No one ive ever been with
or been interested in have never had that kind smile. It
totally lights up a dark and droomy room. It so incredible.
But my philosphy on this kind of situation is that the only
way to get your mind off a girl is with another girl. This
time its alicia. Shes my friends sister so that makes my
approach a little different. I cant really talk about her
to my friends cause shes always there. So i guess for once,
i have no choice but to keep this to myself. Hopefully ill
get her to like me, cause in the past i havent had any luck
with talking to her.

I FINALLY GOT A JOB!!!!!This totally rocks
and will probably have the biggest effect on my life than
anyone or anything ever. The reason being that there are
alot of things i need to get, and alot of things that need
money. With a job i can get those things. The Debts i once
had will dissapear. But there is one problem. The
internship i had at KCAU really affects the amount of time
and energy that i can give at my current job. Now, if it
were anything else, like grocery or animals or outreach,
ill be okay with energy. BUT FAST FOOD!!!!!!!im really
gonna have to change my sleeping habits and eating habits
and everything. The internship is going to be the hardest
thing ive ever encountered in my life. The commitment is
what kills me. Ill have to be on call all the time, and
ballancing the job and the internship is gonna kill me
energy wise. Im gonna give it my all though, and in the
end, ill know that i wont be dissapointed in my
performance. Im gonna give it my max effort and im not
gonna give up this time.