I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2002-03-19 03:37:20 (UTC)


Ya know, the reason that I don't like to paint is because I
don't like to get dirty. I'm filthy. God, what a moronic
thing to say. But I really don't. I hate being dirty. I
feel gross and disgusting and it just makes me sick. But if
I want my room painted, I'm the one who's gonna have to do

I'm exausted. I have cramps. I am still thinking with my
heart, and not my head. But I've come to the conclusion
that I can't change. I think that I'd become sick. I am
just going to have to deal with what life throws at me. I
heard a really good line in a show tonight...it says that
you have to accept what life gives you, good or bad, or you
die lonely. It stuck out like a sore thumb. Hmmm.

I still have cramps. In my back. You know, we all cope with
things differently. I usually just deal emotionally, but
there are things in my life that I just keep to myself.
Those are the real things that I need to cope with. But,
what is coping? How do you deal? I'm very fortunate.
Honestly. But, still..........cope. It's an odd word, with
many meanings. Difficulty comes with that word.