claudia_dreams

shadow thoughts
2002-03-18 20:43:41 (UTC)

today, monday 3-18

I don't know what to do. I really don't. curse it..my
godsbedamned family..*sighs* I've just not realized that i
don't know what to do. It's depressing shit, really, but I
don't feel depressed. I don't feel angry. I feel sad. Hell,
there is always sorrow..sadness, sadness, go away...but it
will only go away under a few circumstances.

I care for her..I know I do. Somehow, I care for her. Not
just because of the link between us, not just because she is
my friend..I don't know why..I just do. Don't know if she
realizes it either..or if she will really understand when
she reads this letter..I now have..24 letters from her. All
since after Christmas break, after the new year. 2002. A
year of new beginnings, because of it wasn't 2002, the year
that is was would be the year of new beginnings. yeah.
meaningless shit, meaningless world, meaningless because I
give it no meaning.

For something to have meaning you must give it meaning? I
haven't really thought of it that way before. Or have I? I
don't know. oh well..




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