angryanymore

despreocupado [the "it's ok now... i'm not pissed anymore" entry]

hola dear readers:

i don't dare ask what you may think of me now that you've
read my previous entry... so ... let's just say... now that
i've vented... i can start naming the things that i
adore... the things that don't piss me off, rather.

... chocolate... is medicine for my soul. how would i get
through pms, heartbreak, dissapointment, chemistry, or
panic attacks without it? if there was ever a soothing
remedy for tense situations out there... chocolate has
always been there. yay for cocao plants. yay for latin
america! yay for belgium! go go gadget godiva tosser.

even though, my friends don't mind messing up my room...
and don't really mind having me scurry around like a
squirrel after an acorn to clean it up. ... i still love
them with all of my heart. they're really the only people i
can put up with. ... they're my happy bumble joys...and i'd
be devouring an insanity sandwich every day of my life if i
didn't have them to balance me out. ... pissing me off just
comes with the package, unfortunately.

ani difranco makes me ecstatic. she is the goddess among
goddesses. ... without her lyrical genious... what would i
do? how would i get inspiration? ... i don't know. ...

issac makes me excited and tingly. the honest to goodness
last guy who did that... was gabe. ... issac seems to be
one of those honest to goodness down to earth sex gods...
and that is too intriguing. his mystery drives me insane...
but it also makes me want someone again. and being
interested in someone and wanting them are too totally
different things. ... ... he is absolutely delectable. the
things he says... drive me up the wall. i wish that i had
more of him. i wish that i could open my email everyday and
see a new email from him... and i wish i could have him
wrapped around my finger. ... i know what it's like to be
wrapped... it's fun... it's great. especially when they
want you too. ... that's what was great about gabe... and
that's what i hope is great about issac. ... the only thing
that worries me... is.... ......... is issac so much like
gabe... that all of the sudden he's going to dissapear in
the same fashion? ... or ya know... am i just absolutely
stupid ... and don't even realize that the truth of the
matter is... issac doesn't really care a thing about
me... ... i think the problem is... i don't know the
truth... or maybe... it's i don't know anything at
all... ... i can dream, though... ... dreaming, cigarettes,
masturbation, and water can keep you going for a while, i
believe... [come on readers... you know you cracked a
smile... lol]

various people's info on aim makes me happy... if i read
it... and it says something that speaks to me... that gives
me a buzz that you wouldn't believe. people who think about
their info... are intellectuals... and that makes me
smile... go everyone who thinks about their info! ... you
rock ass.

my kat, karma, makes me happy... he's a bitch.. but he
rocks ass too. go karma kitty... bite their asses off!...

bluegrass is happy. ...... don't laugh too heart... i like
the way the banjo sounds.

amanda's sugar shoes are happy.

so is the color black...

dreads are happy.

clean smelling arm pits are extremely happy. i encourage
you all to enjoy the benifits of having clean armpits.

india arie is happy... even though she doesn't have them...
she makes me want to get dreads... too bad i can't bare to
grow my hair out long enough for them to look right... oh
yeah, and too bad my mom won't let me.

etc etc

neeley