...tell me why, oh why did we end up this way when we tried, we tried, to make everything ok, tell me why, oh why, did you feel you couldnt stay when we could have stayed together but you wanted it this way...
For those of you who have not had a taste of the Spice
Girls third c.d...well....that's one of their songs.
I really don't have anything worth while to write so I'll
just discuss my dreams.
Last night I had a dream that I was raped and I liked it.
I think it has some sort of reference to cutting cos rape
is obviously a bad thing and that could be what my mind
associates my cutting with. Rape of emotion. Cutting rips
the emotion out of me whether I'm willing to give it or not.
And I liked it because, well, I like cutting.
My moms not home yet....the Oblongs will be on later... I
have to go to work tomrow cos I haven't gone in two days
and my paycheck will now only be 80 dollars. Two peoples
birthdays are comming up. Mine is comming up as well and
someone whom I haven't spoken to in months and months is
comming to my party. I haven't talked to Marianne in a while and it
pisses me off that she still chills with Angi after what
the whore did to me.I haven't practised speaking French in
a while and I probably forgot how to do it. I think I'm
developing my anxiety again and my doll page won't show up
on my site for some reason.
That is what is going through my mind right now.
Now that your day is fullfilled (L....O...L) I must be on
my way and tend to things that would manage even if I
didn't tend to them