GodsPunchline

comedy of errors
2002-03-15 16:05:08 (UTC)

The pain broken down, (part 2)

.... this part is probably the most painful part, we live
in the same house and visual confrontaion is inevidable i
feel like an ass every time but i try to leave the room or
just pay her no attention when she is around, in the fear
that im going to break down if i do stay or even look at
her. untill she come to me and talks nothing will get
better but i dont want her to because i fear that i will
once again have my emotions beaten to nothing. I cant
funtion 100% now but i will shut down at the truth of the
situation... i cant be with her... i dont think i could
take that truth. I find her attractive in every way
physicly, mentaly you name it... i know im deluding my self
i should let this dream fall like all my others in the
hopes that one day i can have a funtional relationship, but
for that im not holding my breath... although it would end
the delution




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