penelope

a day in the life of me
2002-03-15 01:08:09 (UTC)

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i sent steve an sms yesterday. this is what it said: "i
know ur a busy man & told me not 2 stress but i do & want 2
know if u want 2 c me again coz im unsure. if u don't, say
& i wont call u again. pls let me know." well, i never got
a reply from it. that started me thinking that he might not
have access to his phone anymore, like maybe it's stolen,
or worse, he might be 'indisposed' so to speak and can't
use it. i was starting to think that he might be hurt and
in hospital or something. i quickly forgot that though. i
was telling faith all about it last night and she was
saying she doesn't know what's going on either. i was
thinking i wish i was working on a day other than sunday
night, coz he doesn't work on sundays. not long after that
i got a call from katina at work asking me if i wanted to
work on saturday morning. i said yes and thought that it
would be a great opportunity to go and see steve. even
though he hasn't replied to my message, i just can't move
on without hearing that he doesn't like me from him. so i
really want to know, either way, what's going on. kim was
saying that i should go walk past the shop and just ignore
him. i told her i always walk past the shop and not look in
(so he doesn't get in trouble) so that wouldn't work. then
i said that i should go in, ignore him and get served by
rashelle - the one who doesn't like me. hehehe. in theory
it's a good idea, but i know the minute i walk in and he
says hello, i'll crumble and be over it. i will go in and
ask to meet him on his lunch break. he has no excuse now
for not meeting me, coz i have a phone, so he can just call
when he leaves. i think i'm gonna just say straight out
that i want to know what the hell is going on with us and
if there is any point still chasing him.




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