~E

My Crimes
2002-03-13 23:49:58 (UTC)

I called...

So I caled Rocky.

I don't know why. he is the only one who ever told me the
truth.

I cried.

I told him I missed him. I'm not sure I should talk to
people right now. I'm to messed up in the head.

He took my pills and my weed.. Prolly to get her high.
I want to kill him for it.

I have given him everything I have an still he takes and
lies.

when will he fucking get it. You get back what you put out.

All the hurt he is doing to me is going to come back to him
and it's going to suck.

I know I shouldn't care. I can't help it. So the other
boy finaly stated that he doesnt want a relationship. He
just wants casual sex. I don't think I can do that with
someone... I feel cheep. I.. I just can't handle another
meanless moment where someone looks at me and says your
wonderful... they pause, kiss me and well you get th
idea. I can't handle having those moments with people who
it doesn't mater shit to other then "wow I got laid!"

I just can't be that person ever again. I can't trust
myself with my own heart how in gods green earth will I
trust someone else with it who only wants what's between my
legs and could careless about the heart they have in thier
teeth.

*this thing beneath my ribs will beat me to the ground*

~E




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