Twinkie

one hell of a life...
2002-03-13 23:34:04 (UTC)

The beginning...

okay, i'm gonna start at the beginning of my "life". okay
back in like June, my parents split up...which i had wanted
for so long. so i was happy. and then i started talkin to
thins really great guy named nathaniel. and of course i
fell in love with him. but he was 19 and i was 14. but he
didn't care about the age! and i was on probation for some
stupid shit. but i ain't gonna go there right now. but, n*e
ways...me and nat were great friends. him and my friend
kevin used to come over to my house ALL the time and we'd
get drunk. me nat, kevin and my momma. then one day i was
home alone so, i called nat and had him come over. and we
were sittin in my room and we had our 1st kiss. it was
perfect. then he fingered me...on my sisters bed!!! but
then he stopped talkin to me in like September. b/c hes "in
love" with his girlfriend brandi. yet hes cheated on her so
many times. i don't think its possible that he loves her.
but i dunno. but, n*e ways...in august, on the last night
of the fair, i was there jus chillin ya kow. my friend
michael comes up to me w/2 of his friends. and they were
GORGEOUS! and we all went back to michael's friend Kyle's
car. and i was still a virgin, so i was really nurvous. and
that was the night that i lost my virginity. it was great.
and me and Kyle talked for like 5 months. then we stoped
talkin. and i didn't know why till a couple of days ago. it
was b/c his girlfriend came back. he had a girlfriend the
whole time we were taklin!! and while we was talkin we were
also fuckin! so that pissed me off. n* ways...Kyle has a
friend named Shawn D.(we'll call him #1) whom i am really
good friends with. and Shawn intorduced me to one of his
friends named Shawn.(we'll call him #2) who i think is
absloutly gorgeous! and i like him...a lot! and he told me
that Shawn #1 likes me. and i feel really bad about it b/c
i've messed around w/2 of his best friends. and now i like
another one of his friends. and i dunno what to do!!!! i
mean, yea i kinda like him. but then again...i also like
Shawn #2. and i'm still hopeing i'll get nathaniel back.
but...i'm gonna go for now. i have ta call Shawn #2...:)




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