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silentmonk
2002-03-12 21:12:38 (UTC)

when it seems hope could be lost

how do i rid myself of these things? it is not i. there is
my mistake. i do not rid myself completely. the Lord
changes me. working in me for the better. though it may
seem slow, it is in perfect timing.

today the Spirit showed me more faults. that i have seen
but not acknowledged. my tongue is full of evil and is hard
to control. i speak evil of my sister and of one of my
closest friends. i judge them with pride, thinking myself
better. but i am only a wretchid sinner. who makes so many
mistakes. i am dirty and filthy, and do not deserve
anything.

But this is when God does his most miraculous work. This is
when the concept of forgiveness, grace and mercy become
real. This is when the most precious thing becomes real.
The Cross. my sin is the reason why Jesus did what he did.
yes i am sinner. i have many faults. God dislikes it, but
his love for me and you is so much stronger. his love is
perfect. and this is why Jesus chose the cross. this is why
Jesus submitted to the Father, humbled himself, and hung
from that tree.

so i realize my evil tongue needs to be trained. it needs
to be tamed. whipped and put into right use. i need to
practice self control and obedience, Just as Christ did
these things. and he was perfect.

And most of all i need to realize that it is not me. But
Christ. and he does his faithful work in his perfect timing.




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