*MS JLYN*

*ALL CRIED OUT OVER U*
2002-03-11 02:57:56 (UTC)

SONG IN MY HEAD

It could all be so simple.
But you'd rather make it hard.
Loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars.
Tell me who I have to be
to get some reciprocity.
See no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know it ain't workin'
No, and when I try to walk away
you'd hurt yourself to make me stay.
This is crazy. Oh this is crazy.
Care for me, care for me.
I know you care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
Give to me, give to me.
Why won't you live for me?
Care for me, care for me.
You said you'd care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
Is this just a silly game
that forces you to act this way?
Forces you to scream my name
then pretend that you can't stay.
Tell me who I have to be
to get some reciprocity.
See no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know it ain't workin'
No, and when I try to walk away
you'd hurt yourself to make me stay.
This is crazy. Oh this is crazy.
Care for me, care for me.
I know you care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
Give to me, give to me.
Why won't you live for me?
Care for me, care for me.
You said you'd care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
I keep letting you back in.
How can I explain myself?
As painful as this thing has been,
I just can't be with no one else.
See I know what we got to do.
You let go, and I'll let go too.
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
and no one ever will.
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know it ain't workin'
No, and when I try to walk away
you'd hurt yourself to make me stay.
This is crazy. Oh this is crazy.
Care for me, care for me.
I know you care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
Give to me, give to me.
Why won't you live for me?
Care for me, care for me.
You said you'd care for me.
There for me, there for me.
Said you'd be there for me.
Cry for me, cry for me.
You said you'd die for me.
Where were you when I needed you?
Care.
There.
Cry.
Give.
*EX-FACTOR* Lauryn Hill
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This is the song of the day for me. I didn't hear it on the
radio or anything....I just started singing it. It makes me
think a lot. This song could hold true to a lot of
relationships....whether it be boyfriend or just best
friend. I don't know.....it was just on my mind. Well, my
weekend was very uneventful. I worked yesterday and today I
just chilled. We have midterms tomorrow and Tuesday, so I
didn't want to fry the brain with too much fun(yeah right!)
Later in the week, Kellen is suppose to be coming home. I
haven't talked to him in a minute. I don't have the urge to
either. Normally when it gets like this...I just send him a
quick email, but I don't have the urge for that either. I
haven't talked to Daryl. I just don't have the urge or
anything to want to talk to either one of them. The only
person I want to talk to is Leroy. Call me crazy, but I
miss him. I miss chatting with him on Yahoo. Gosh, this
feeling is crazy. I don't feel horrible for feeling this
way or anything, but I don't know why I shift how I feel
about him every other day. But all I know is that I miss
him. But anyway, I'm excited about Spring. I'm ready for
the sun to be out and the warm weather. As soon as it gets
like that.....GRADUATION will be here soon!!!!! Well, let
me hit the books to study for my midterms tomorrow.

*As I look at what I've done
The type of life that I've lived
How many things I pray the father will forgive
One situation involved a young man
He was the ocean and I was the sand
He stole my heart like a thief in the night
Dulled my sense blurred my sight

I used to love him but now I don't
I used to love him but now I don't

I chose a road of passion and pain
Sacrificed too much and waited in vain
Gave up my power ceased being queen
Addicted to love like the drug of a fiend..........

I see him sometimes and the look in his eye
Is one of a man whose lost treasures untold
But my heart is gold I took my back my soul
And totally let my creator control
The life which was his to begin with*
-Lauryn Hill *I USED TO LOVE HIM*

~MS JLYN~