phantasmagoria

phantasmagoria
2002-03-09 18:24:06 (UTC)

great/terrible

so yesterday was the best day ever for a while. it was
just perfect. we took a shower.....!
then my momma came and got me and we did stuff. we talked
about religion and politics and stuff like that. i
actually enjoyed it a lot. i felt like we were really
connecting. i felt really bad about not telling her i'm
bisexual and lying to her about bagel meetings and such, so
i was sort of trying to lead up to telling her. i thought
i was doing an okay job. she didn't seem like she had any
problems with sexual minority groups. so i told her. and
she fucking freaked out! it was terrible. she was all
about how it was unnatural and therefore wrong and i was
just confused. she even tried to blame it on the academy
and the liberal thinkers therein when i knew before i had
even heard of the academy! i tried to explain myself to
her, but she just wouldn't listen. she thinks it's a
phase. and that it's terrible. i wish i could make her
see, make her listen at least. but i don't see that
happening. maybe she was just caught off-guard and will
calm down. that's what laura keeps telling me anyway. i
wish i had laura's parents right now. a lot of unitarian
universalists surrounding me would be good. people who
understand and accept you for who you are, and will listen
to what you have to say, even if they don't agree with your
opinion. i was so upset about it last night. i think one
of the things that got me was that all of her arguments
sounded logical and i started thinking it really was wrong
or something. even though i know it isn't. i cried a lot
last night. it was fun. wait, no, it sucked. laura
helped a lot, though.
on a lighter note, we're going to emerson uu church in
houston tomorrow morning. me, laura, richard, and jack,
that is. i think it will be fun. a nice change, anyway.
my momma hates me right now.




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