Dreamer52686

Dreaming Of Everything
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2002-03-08 15:39:05 (UTC)

I guess I'm not cynical enough...

The friends I had before high school, are not talking to me
anymore.

I guess I'm not cynical enough.

The friends I have had for 5 years before high school, are
making new "bestest friends in the entire world."

I guess I'm not cynical enough.


"Stephanie, you are the bestest friend in the entire world,
and I don't know what I would ever do without you!"...turns
into, "Stephanie, you're funny as hell."..turns
into..."Stephanie, you're so funny"...turns into..."Oh,
someone else, you are the bestest friend in the whole
entire world."

I guess I'm not cynical enough.

I can't surround myself with people who are gonna stab me
in the back...but I keep taking the stabbings. Not once,
not twice, but now 3 times. I think that's enough.

I guess I'm not cynical enough.

My life is taking a wrong turn, and I need to decide what
I'm going to do...which friends I might have to lose. They
are bringing me farther down than where I would like to
be. Sure, they are just like me, have hopes,dreams and
friends, so it seems. We've shared memories, laughed and
cried, but never really had to say goodbye. Someone's
going to tell me "they can't change who they are," or "they
can't help it" but I can change who I want to be with in
order to be happy...right? People shouldn't get mad at me
for trying to stay happy, and I'm trying not to get sappy.
Why is the world so complicated? I guess I'm not cynical
enough. To fit in this world. I guess I'm too happy. to
fit in with my group of friends. I guess I'm not cynical
enough to fit in anywhere here. I guess I'm too happy, and
need to go somewhere else. I guess I'm not cynical enough.


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