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No time for love Dr. Jones
2002-03-08 14:13:46 (UTC)

Pt II - if ever words were spoken...

now where was i? just lamenting the fact that my life
wasn't as bullshit as may have been first apparent. so
anyhoo, me and carolyn had been together for almost two
years, everything's grouse as hell, but for me, life was
getting a bit on the stale side. it just seemed a tad too
repititious for my liking. i mean i'd wake up EVERY day, at
the buttcrack of dawn, walk 30 minutes to the bus stop (i
know, it's not that far and i shouldn't whinge, but this is
my diary so bog off), jump a bus to the city to start my
meaningless job, which i hate more than clowns on
unicycles, stay there all day until i get to go home, on
yet another bus man screw public transport, and hang around
with carolyn all night.

now, the hanging around with carolyn bit isn't the bit that
i had a problem with, it's the all night bit. now don't get
me wrong, i loved the girl, and still do, but after such a
hectic day (no that isn't sarcasm) i need a bit of self
time to relax you know? kick back a bit, have a bit of a
strum on the old geetar. i'm not exactly sure what i'm
trying to get at here, but hanging with carolyn was great.
as i've already said, she's my best friend, i'd do anything
for her, but sometimes you need to have some time off. it
just seemed that if i wasn't working, i was with her all
the time. it got a bit much. sometimes she wouldn't leave
until 11 or 12 o'clock, when i had to work the next day. it
got a bit much, by the end of the week i was completely
shagged and she'd always wonder why i wouldn't want to do
anything on the weekends. but then again, i could've stood
up for myself and asked her to go home couldn't i? well
that just wouldn't be me, would it? but, these were some of
the happiest days in my life, and i still wouldn't trade
them for anything. i still treasure my friendship with
carolyn (although lately things have been a bit tense, but
that's another story for another time).

so i guess that about explains the how's and why's of my
leaving my 'home' town (i still thing of it as my home town
now, even though i'm "home" wth my parents, wierd how that
works huh?). i've been gone for almost four months now, and
i'm scared stiff. i've got myself a job, but still no
friends. i've honestly thought about moving back to darwin
now, but that would seem like a complete waste of time.
originally i thought about going to uni once i got here,
but those plans fell through. so now all i do is sit around
home and go to this new job. the only ppl in adelaide i
know, that aren't family, are at my job. and there's no one
my age really. so i'm up the creek. hurrah for my big, bold
plans. the only difference i can see in my life now to 5
months ago is that now, i don't have a girlfriend or ANY
friends at all. i really wish i work out how the hell i got
duped into this dud deal........




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