McCall

the life of a not so perfect KT girl
2002-03-07 02:36:53 (UTC)

still a playa

thats right I am still in swimming I refuse to let that
nasty bitch win .. i am better than that ..I am not feeling
good at all I wanna talk to Josh but who knows when I will
talk to him .. I feel really bad b/c tiff called me today
and like I was kinda rude b/c I was half asleep and I just
feel really crappy right now .. I can't sing and I can't
even motivte my self to play my guitar .. bahh I am
aggrivatted .. Noemi has not told me if she can come this
weekend or no .. and don't u know Jason M. is trying to be
all nice and rub All this crap in my face heres the convo !
costanza says:
how are you
Princess M says:
hi
Princess M says:
I am okay I am going to victoria on friday night or
saturday morning
Princess M says:
how are u
costanza says:
realy im great
Princess M says:
thats awsome
Princess M says:

Princess M says:
so ne ways
costanza says:
well its cool you get to come to v town
costanza says:
why are you coming to victoria if you dont mind me asking
Princess M says:
i am picking up one of my good friends who is coming to
stay with me for a few days and she is meeting me in
victoria..
costanza says:
thats cool
costanza says:
i need to come see you some time
Princess M says:
that would be great .. sometime come and see me ..
costanza says:
yea it would
Princess M says:

Princess M says:
so what have u been up to lately
costanza says:
ive been playing alot of golf latley
Princess M says:
oh really thats awsome I play golf with my dad ..
costanza says:
do you are you any good
Princess M says:
not really .. I just do it to have fun and make him happy
costanza says:
thats cool
Princess M says:
I am soo excited I am going to see blink 182 and green day
in may
costanza says:
hows you swiming going
Princess M says:
bahh
costanza says:
im going to see them in san
costanza says:
with greenday
Princess M says:
I am so angry with the whole swimming thing
Princess M says:
like I dunno I almost dropped out today ..
costanza says:
like in may
costanza says:
realy
Princess M says:
I hate the coach and its just really physically straning
costanza says:
well if you hate it dont put yourself through that
Princess M says:
like I come home and fal asleep and its messing my body
up .. my shoulders and knees hurt b/c we are running alot
now like I ran 2 miles today and I wanna die I feel really
nasty
Princess M says:
I can't get out I refuse to let her win
costanza says:
well good for you
Princess M says:
like my dad went and talked to her and made her cry today
so everytime I wanna get out I just think about that and it
makes all the pain worth it
Princess M says:

Princess M says:
how is school going
Princess M says:
?
costanza says:
going good
Princess M says:
awsome

I was just like get over yourself .. Mr. I am so cocky
blah blah ..
okay so yeah I have been thinking about all the stuff I
left back in Arkansas and I wanna go back so bad .. I miss
a certian person I should not miss and I am not allowed to
see him .. I hat e all this I am dreaming about him .. and
I am thinking about him and wondering if he is thinking
about me .. I mean I am just freaking out b/c I mean all
these feeling of lonelyness and want are comeing back .. I
am having a relaps of my life at 14 .. do u know it has
been 2 years next month since I have seen him .. well
actually since I met him .. God I know he does not remember
b/c he was not like that .. I wish I could just see him
for a min .. just a min or 2 just to see of he remebers
me .. just to see what he does .. I remeber everytime I saw
him and all the stuff he said to me .. it makes me soo
sad .. I hate it .. why ... I look out my window hoping to
see him there .. it seems like a part of me won't let go
b/c its not safe .. not time .. maybe I will always have
this longing for him .. maybe I will see him again .. maybe
not .. who knows ..I dunno I don't wanna think about it ..
humm well I dunno i need to go
-Mc


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