AngeL w/o WinGs

"Had a Bad Day Again"

So what's new.....I just seem to be kept being pulled in
all directions....yelled at spit out and heart torn apart,
over and over and over again. After Joe M.'s
outburst....well he pretty much broke my heart and i dont
know what to do about him b/c i dont see how or what i can
possibly say to him, and i dont see how i can put this all
behind me, now that i kno how he really feels. i was
thinking maybe i should just stop talking to him
altogether, and that way he will get over me quicker. but i
dont know if I could go through that.....and i kno itd be
hard for him at first, but in the end it would be better
for him.
andrew j....jasper.....i hear all these things now. he
doesnt like me. he likes christina. he doesnt wanna ruin
the band. he is going out with christina this weekend. BLAH
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH FUCKING BLAH BLAH BLAH. ok i can
DEAL w/ rejection....in my own way in my own time. but i
cant do that cuz i feel like i'm in a glass bowl and
everyone is watching me to see how i handle everything. and
i feel like he is sadly shaking his head in pity saying "oh
that poor girl."

I CANT TAKE THIS.

oh well, i'll have to deal.

why oh why why why why why me?