SuicidalFish

I'm A Pez Kid.
2002-03-04 20:20:15 (UTC)

I feel phenomenal!!!!

I feel so fucking good!!! I don't know why I just do!!
I felt un-wanted by Sara and Emily so I sat with Brianna,
Eriks, Emilia, and Ashley N. At lunch today. Well we were
sitting down by the other end of the table.. across from
the 7th grade guys.
Well Nick made a couple cracks about me but I have no
idea what he said and well I DON'T CARE!! I HONESTLY DON'T
CARE!! I don't know why.. I just don't give a shit what he
has to say.

I've decided that the only person that actually
notices that I'm animate is Nick. Yes that's right. The guy
I went out with a year ago. Who inclusively hates me!! Well
the reason I think this is because everytime he sees me he
makes fun of me. Which he obviously realizes that I'm
there. I doesn't matter if he makes fun of me. He knows I'm
there. And he does something about it.. he insults me. Heh.

I hear from Ashley N. That Sara seems to think that
after I apoligized to Emily I was talkign about her behind
her back. I wasn't talking to Sara about her. Sara says she
just heard I was. I might have been. But the only people I
would have said something to were Ashley, Erika, and Devon.
And none of them can really stand Emily, so they wouldn't
go and say I was talking about her.

I'm a sick sick bastard. I am the happiest person I
could be but I still insist on slicing my legs. And why do
I continue to do this? Because I find it fun. Sitting on my
bed sliding it across my legs. Mutilating my body. If I
believed in hell, I;d prolly end up there. But I don't so
why worry?
Well I'm also a sick sick bastard because I enjoy
listenign to my parents fight. I can't stand my dad.. at
all. LoL. He and my mother were arguing last ngiht.. over
some stpuid shit.. and I was sittign at the top of the
stairs.. listening. One more reason I'd be going to hell.

I have to go type up my old bookreport and send it to
Ashley because she's giving me one of her old ones.. It's
due tomorrow. Hmm..




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