a rop through my mind....
2002-03-04 15:23:31 (UTC)

"Every silver linings got a touch of grey "~Grateful Dead


figured something out....when i crashed, i was where i
needed to be....(at the house)....yes, down here is my home
base, but being in Snyder house, or even Front house, is
more comforting, it's homey, i can relax there, i get along
with the people who spend time there.....yes i have my
girls down here, but we're in different dorms, and i'm not
overly friendly with my floor mates (though some of them i
do get along with just fine, but not the ones that live on
either side next room over, i can hear them converse
through the walls, yeah...), i can colapse, and it's
ok.....and it helps that the one person here that probably
can read me the best, and knows how to deal with me, is
there too........yeah...i'm mostly fixed now....maybe not
fixed as much as numb....prolly will sorta only half
partisipate in rally for the rest of it....i can't handle
that added crap now....yes i was gung ho, but our songs
suck, they kiss ass, and why suck up???? is winning really
all that important to us?

i'm just burnt out, physically and emotionally right now,
so if you want to start shit with me, this week is not a
good time......

some tmbg for you (name the songs.....prize for those who
get it right....or something....)

Love people are there
The smell of love is everywhere
You think it's always sensitive and good
You think that I want to be understood
I've got a match
Your embrace and my collapse

D, world destruction
Over and overture
N, do I need
Apostrophe T, need this torture?

Don't don't don't let's start
This is the worst part
Could believe for all the world
That you're my precious little girl
But don't don't don't let's start
I've got a weak heart
And I don't get around how you get around

No one in the world ever gets what they want and that is
Everybody dies frustrated and sad and that is beautiful
They want what they're not and I wish they would stop...
I'm glad they are a snowman with protective rubber skin