Visions Of Life
2002-03-02 07:50:41 (UTC)

Lion King 2

Damn, I love that movie *laughs*

Okay, im not AS depressive.. I am out of bed which is a
good sign. I am watching disney movies as well as Jim Carey
movies. I am thrilled.

Every time I am motivated it is the weekend so I have to
wait till monday to be productive but then I am too tired.
Its a destructive cycle. My whole life is one continuous
fuckin cycle. *laughs*

I am lonely. I am scared. I am stressed. I am restless. I
am scared. I am scared. I am scared. I am scared.

Did I mention I am terrified?

My fovarite plumber was back *laughs* This time nothing was
wroing with my sinks or my pipes. The pipes for the people
above me were frozen so he was checking if mine were. Or
something weird like that. I was sleeping for part of his
visit. Im horrible. Strange people come into my apartment.
I am aware of it and I just pull the blanket over my head
and ignore them. Probally cuz Im never wearing pants and
look like a gerbil on crack but still..

See.. whever I mention animals on crack it means Im in a
better mood.

Did I mention I now dislike paramedics?? Lol.. Okay.. just
this one bastard ass licking asshole of a chauvinistic
paramedic. Rah! I HATE being talked down to. He wouldnt
tell me what kind of information he wanted then got pissed
off and said I wasnt any help. I mean, can I read his mind?
I didnt call him. I didnt know what was going on. How could
I possibly tell him what he needs to know if he is just
going to stand there like a fucking mute and dumb idiot?
Then on top of it he wanted to talk to our bitch ass law
breaking general manger who just happened to be there at
2am. That was fine, she was helpful, but on the way down(he
walked her to her office) he was telling her how I didnt
know anything! Its a fuckin conspiracy or something, I

Hmmm.. I have this annoying problem that when i see or hear
about illegal or questionable practices, i want to right
them, even tho I have no business sticking my nose into
some things..

And now i quote lyrics from Lion King 2 Simbas Pride(I sang
this in a choir performance back in highschool. No making
fun of me!)

As you go through life, you'll see
There is so much that we
Dont understand
And the only thing we know
Is things dont always go
The way we planned
But you'll see
That we'll never turn away
When it seems, all your dreams
Come undone
We will stand
By your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more, then we are
We are one

If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am
Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I, just one part
Of some big plan
Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go one
Your journey has only begun
Tears of pain
Tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is this pride
Deep inside
We are one

Okay, that entirely from memory.. Scary, huh!

Work is annoying. I hate my general manager and she
deserves to go to jail. Life is stressful. The stress will
be worth it in the end. I am happy in the back of my mind.
I am in love. Nothing can change that.