Autumn Always
2002-03-01 07:21:46 (UTC)


Stress sucks. But I got the job!!! I am so happy about that
it's unbelieveable! I went in and the interview went
wonderfully. I'll get a call next week with the schedual
and when I start. I'm nervous but hopefull. On the downside
I think I've discovered a pattern with my medication here.
I seem to be ok during the day, but the longer the day
wears on the more I get anxious. I despise it. By nightfall
I'm at a constant stress level. I'm going to call my doctor
tomorrow and ask if I should split the dose in half and
take it twice a day? Maybe thats why? All I know is it's
frightening and I just want a fucking grip on my life
already. I'm so tired of this. *sigh* Anxiety is a common
side effect of paxil, yet it treats panic? I'm told it will
pass. I can only pray. I don't know how much longer I can
put up with this shit. But let's try and focus on the good
stuff. I got the job! And Patrick and mom and Nathan have
been very supportive. I don't know what I would do without
such a wonderfull support group. I'm so lucky. Now I've got
to try and sleep so I can get a normal schedual going. I'll
be working 8am to 6pm. Wow. Pray for me.