The Xdruggie Files
The wisdom of the Spice Girls
Was driving yesterday. Popped in an old tape that a dj
friend (DJ SKOT- aka 2threw) made for me in the early 90's.
I was in a nostalgic mood anyway. That first Spice Girl
Song came on. The one that starts 'if you want my future,
forget my past.' That is very where i am right now. Getting
caught up in x's and people from the past. past behaviors
like making a new screenname and looking up gay porn on the
web (which leads me to chatting which leads to me hooking
up). I am very obsessed with hank hightower (porn star)
again for some reason. I am cycling back to my bear thing.
I keep thinking about things in my past and getting a cold
chill. I have to remember i am not that person anymore.
I have an interview for a new job on Tuesday. I hate my job
right now. I should be out of outpatient by Mid March. I
should get my discharge date tonight!