Marco Jacksonovic

Crazy What You Could've Had
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2002-02-26 00:00:51 (UTC)

Coffee And Tea. And The Invisible Bee Gees.

Today has not been the most exciting of days. The best it
got was noticing during the Evolutionary Pathology that the
girl next to me (no name, she won't feature a lot) was
gazing with her big blue eyes into mine. I was quite
flustered; mainly because she'd leaned across and waved
before I spied that she'd moved at all. Nice girl, though.

Got very wet this morning. Out of the bath as well, I got
caught in the rain. It was uncomfortable, you know, all
lecture with sodden upper legs and knees. Nobody likes that.

So...quite a quiet and thoughtful day...I suppose. The
thing I have to do the most thinking about, something that
only just came about, is more about me. Whether the brash,
rude and generally moody character I can be is me, or the
person I am now is me. I would say the latter, I think,
having worked hard to get away from the former, but I know
he resides in me still.

I don't think I'm that miserable any more. I'm not laugh-a-
minute smile-on-face happy, ever, but I get by. My mood's
swung up a lot of late? You've noticed, please! Is it just
that I am the old me, and now I'm living a lie?

True, I do occasionally feel inferior to people of a higher
social/economic group than me, but I don't really care. I
know that I'm generally no better nor worse than they are
in my life, and if it came to a fight, I could hit them
with a brick.

I don't know.

"I'm not sure it'll ever work out right". I think this says
it best. Maybe I'm over-reacting. I just don't know.

And, on that note of general knowledge lacking, I'll sign
off and find out what the fuss is.

Oh, I took an IQ test today, got a 134. Was a bit upset. I
reckon I'm about 10 higher at peak. This is why my maths
needs a bit of casual working on. I did get a Pythagoras
though, so I can't complain.

WILT? I Can See A Liar - Oasis (But I've had a Will Smith
day. Why? I dunno. I'm going to Miami...etc.)


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