carolynmichelle

Somewhere more familiar...
2002-02-24 17:07:58 (UTC)

All the difference...

2000-11-08 - 19:50:48

okay all I have to say this is beinging to become supremely
addictive...kinda like a long IM to one of my Danielles.
Two weeks from today I will be at home, enjoying the
comforts of my bed. Meeting my new puppy. And sliding back
into the life I left back home, before college. Found
something tonight while I was cleaning, the journal that
contains my history with Jason...something that I didn't
think I had brought with me, I wish I hadn't brought it.

Not that is always a bad thing, but things were so simple
then...and I knew what I wanted and who I was, and what my
future would be. Nothing is ever as simple as it seems. In
these two months at college, my future has changed more
than I could have imagined, I"m miserable at my dream
college, I"ve changed my major on such a drastic level((I
would say from Film&Video to Political Science would be a
drastic change.)) And I"ve hurt so many people. And that I
regret most, how in two months have I become a selfish
egocentric person? Hurting whoever I come near.


Ireland sounds good, far away from everyone I"ve hurt. This
is like a course in self examination. what difference am I
really making in this world? And is it for the good? If
not...,what the hell am I trying to do?


~Carolyn~




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