Psychotic Rambles
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2002-02-24 07:31:45 (UTC)

The Show must go On

The Show Must Go On

Empty spaces - what are we living for
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score
On and on, does anybody know what we are looking for...
Another hero, another mindless crime
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime
Hold the line, does anybody want to take it anymore
The show must go on,
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on.
Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance
Another heartache, another failed romance
On and on, does anybody know what we are living for?
I guess I'm learning, I must be warmer now
I'll soon be turning, round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free
The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies
Fairytales of yesterday will grow but never die
I can fly - my friends
The show must go on
The show must go on
I'll face it with a grin
I'm never giving in
On - with the show -
I'll top the bill, I'll overkill
I have to find the will to carry on
On with the -
On with the show -
The show must go on...

I had this way trippy dream about Cajigal (brian)...for the
record, this is the religious fanaticist skater guy [hes
pretty good too] who has the nasty habbit of calling me
satanist/devil worshipper and stuff like that. but we got
that cleared up, athough we arent anywhere near being buddy
buddy...SO anyway, in the dream i was with him at this
carnival or skatepark thing and well, we ended up making
out and then he looks up and he's like oh shit here comes
your boyfriend apparantly at that point in time i was going
out with chris. but anyway he comes over and i'm just
shattered and remorseful and then chris' dad comes over and
starts cussing me out. anyway. it was trippy.

in ms.cahoon's we had to write a note to Stephen King
because she wants to send him a soda...i thought mine was
Dear Mr. Stephen King,
(you are a nutcase. i think people who write
psychotic books should be locked away forever. you and that
crack dean koontz as well, for that matter. now, i would
acredit you with not being totally illiterate, or even a
bad writer, i just think you have serious problems you
should take care of) In any case, you carry books around
with you right? so say you got stuck in a flood. apart from
being wet, possibly trapped and having no possibility of
attaining food, you at least wouldnt get bored (unless you
finished your book 5 times, but hopefully you wont be stuck
[or alive] long enough for that to happen). And saying you
were a really lucky dude, you have a cookbook on you...then
you could at least pretend you had a sumptuous feast before
you. Now, should it be the case that that really does
happen, Ms.Cahoon's 8th grade English class believes you
deserve a soda (if not a nobel literature prize) just to
get your juices going, and to assure you survive long
enough to make it through the 6th chapter.

i had ms. cahoon cracking up. hey you know what was
badass? we were reading A Light in the Forest in history (i
have cahoon for that too) and we were trying to decide (by
taking a vote) if the boy should go to his English or
Indian family and on my paper i wrote "neither-send him to
new spain and give everyone visitation rights" my vote
happened to be the last one and the entire room changed
thier mind and voted for my solution. it was so badass!

Steven called me last night. he was like hey. that was the
extent of our conversation. hahahaha. he's kewl. ok, just
for the record Katelyn and Chris are being total
crackheads.but i've already said that about five million

katelyn is being an ass too! aside from you and katie ryder
she's my only real girl-friend. i just dont chill w/ girls.
i hate girls. i hate how they talk and lie and sabotage and
i could go on and on about this but anyway....meghan
benjamin embodies all that i hate about the feminine race
and katelyn has been hanging around her a lot lately. now
dont get me wrong. i may be protective, but i would never
try to keep kate from having other friends. just when she
starts BECOMING someone else because of it, it starts to
piss me off ya know. she's leaving in 4 months and meghan
is trying everything in her power to seperate us. they have
so many inside jokes it scares and disgusts me. Katelyn is
even developing the same POSTURE as meghan!!! before i have
never heard katelyn make one solitary sexual comment and
now she busts out with shit like "coochie card". and there
have never been any rumors about katelyn about anything and
suddenly i'm hearin stuff like she was babysitting with
meghan and these dudes came over and they were giving head.
and people are telling me that she told them she lost her
virginity! WTF?! She wouldnt even move over for me when i
wanted to sit down with them at the bowling alley. then i
was like, well, i'm not gonna bother ya'll and i went
somewhere else and she didnt even stop me. what in the
fucking hell?! i hate it i hate it i hate it. and i will
keep writing the same thing over and over again i dont care
how many times cause it just pisses me off over and over
again. she is prolly gonna be the last real girlfriend i
ever have. you know what? just fuck it. fuck everybody.
never never never never never! never do you hear!

Damien tried to threaten me wit a boxcutter. He was
like "you wanna die" fuckin a. i could report that shit.
but i wont. i suck so bad at guitar. everyone is leaving
me. i feel so alone. i dont care anymroe. what is there
possible left to care about? my mother is a fucking
alcoholic crack bitch for whom i posses no love
whatsoever...i litterally have dreams about skateboarding.
i love it! but my sinuses are killing me,and besides, its
snowing. ack. i hate snow. ::Sneezes::

pissed off skaterchic