demi

This is Me
2002-02-22 16:31:01 (UTC)

About Myself

I know I am not well. I don't know what it is that is the
matter with me, but I know I shouldn't feel this bad for as
young as I am. I have days that are halfway good and other
days that I feel I am on my death bed. I am afraid to find
out what it is. A lot of days I don't care what it is
because I feel like if my life ends, I would be a lot
better off. Other days when I look at my daughters and
grandkids, I think that I better get this taken care of
because I don't want them to suffer. But I am so scared to
find out what it is. I know that there is nothing that can
be done if it is cancer. The thought of dying scares me so
bad. I don't think I could handle knowing that is what it
is.




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