Don Juan

2002-02-22 04:37:25 (UTC)

Been a While

It's been a while since I've written in this thing because
I've been so tied up with work and school... I haven't had
much time to think about things like I used to. It's kinda
nice... I have a routine now that doesn't consist of
sulking (I don't have time anymore). But I sacrifice that
security in a routine for freedom. I've turned into a
regular old Joe. I go to work, come home, watch tv, and go
to bed. And if I'm lucky, on Friday and Saturday I get
fucked up some. but on those weekends I spend all my hard
earned money for a trivial little hight that last about 3
hours. Somehow I don't think it's worth it. Maybe I'll
quit, maybe I wont, maybe a brick will fall on me monday at
work and then I wont have to worry about it. I think I
still have a death wish, somewhat. I'm crazier than any
one person I know and and I always have a smile on my face
while I'm doing something so crazy. I enjoy trying to kill
myself without actually doing it straight-out. Oh well...
maybe one day, one day.