*MS JLYN*

*ALL CRIED OUT OVER U*
2002-02-21 20:39:18 (UTC)

1/2 DAY...........

Was it really a half day? It certainly doesn't seem like
it. Man, I gotta go to work tonite. That really sucks. I
hate going up there. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to work
tomorrow. I don't feel bad either because it's not my fault
they have all those sucky workers up there. I definitely
need to look for a new job. Fa Sho! Anyway, I wrote Jacan a
note and explained why I was acting the way I was. Me and
Dee have been talking. They want to go somewhere and talk
or whatever. I think that's what we need to do, but I fear
what will come of it. I know all of us are going to speak
truthfully and I know some things are going to change. I'm
not sure if it will be for the best or not. I don't want to
see our friendship end, but I know things happen. That's
what scares me the most. I think Jacan may have been upset
about the letter that I wrote her. I told her that I felt I
was being fake, which I really did. I felt like when I go
to the locker, that my smiles and conversation was fake. I
can't help that. I just feel a void in our friendship.
Maybe we all are changing. I know I'm changing or going
through something....whatever you want to call it. But I
guess we will discuss everything soon. But anyway, Kellen
email me the other day. I don't check my email the way I
use to. I get online to hit this thang up and maybe check
up on some college stuff. Like Nicole said, "We are getting
to grown for this!" Maybe so. Like I was saying though, he
emailed me. He replied to my "Usher" email though, which
he's already done. I'm thinking that he's been thinking
about me a bit(all smiles.) If Kellen walked into the
picture and said, "Jocelyn, I like you and I want you to be
my girl," I swear I would forget everything in the past and
be with him. That's how deep it is. I've liked him forever
it seems.....10th grade! I don't think about him the way I
use to, but that is the coolest dude that I've come across.
It's something about the way he talks to me and the way he
acts.....it's what I need. He puts all the other dudes I've
known and liked to shame. I got a song for him:

My heart belongs to you
So what could I do
To make you feel I'm down with
You see me hangin around
But you don't know how you make me feel for you, and

Each and every day, I try to make some sense of this
What you mean to me, I know it could be serious
Each and every nite, I dream about just holding you
Loving you like this, what is a girl supposed to do

I love you (I love you)
I want you (I want you)
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you (I love you)
I need you (and I need you)
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

First time I saw your face
My heart just erased
All the guys I knew
Before you walked into my life
I was the type to never want for nothing

Each and every day, I try to make some sense of this
What you mean to me, I know it could be serious
Each and every nite, I dream about just holding you
Loving you like this, what is a girl supposed to do

I love you (I love you)
I want you (I need you)
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you (I love you)
I need you (need you)
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

I love you, I want you, I need you in my life
Can't you see what you mean to me?
Baby come hold me tight
I miss you, wanna kiss you
Everytime I see your face
Baby I'll be waiting for you
Each and everyday

I love you (Oooohhh Ooooohh Ooooohh)
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see

You're the only one for me
And I know it's meant to be
What can I do to make you see
My love will carry on (listen to my heart)
So listen to my heart and know
You'll find out where my love will go
The future lies between us boy
Oh babe I love you so

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you (baby I love you)
I need you (baby I need you)
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

*JLYN*