zrich_01

ramblings
2002-02-21 09:23:23 (UTC)

well this just sucks

Okay, weird ass news today. I was watching TRL, which i
haven't in ages, but it was background news. Okay, a Lance
from Nsync is going into space?!?! What the fuck. Okay, I
heard he like passed entrance exams before joining the
group, but he's also going to Russia for months before
going. Um, don't they have a tour? Are they postponing it
or are the rest going sans-Lance? Whatever. I guess he
gets to do what he wants. I want money now. Well, I
always wanted money, but that's besides the point.

Ok, so we had our final dress rehearsal tonight, and my
director practically bit my head off, but only once, and
then we had it down. The show starts, well, i guess it's
today now. My tech director keeps asking me if i'm
alright, cuz i'm only a freshman, and he knows how much
work it is, especially when you're not expecting it.
According to him and the other two seniors that I talk to a
lot, I'm being prepped to take their spots next year.
Yeah, shoot me now. I'm also gonna take up another major.
I have until the end of the semester to choose, but I'm not
really sure yet. I was going to do management so that I
can still do entertainment stuff, and with knowing the ins
and outs of theatre, I could get a nice cushy job
somewhere. I'm really not sure what I want right now. I
know I want to be one of those people getting an award for
acting or singing or something somewhere, but it's gonna be
tough, and I know that if I end up doing a job right out of
college that doesn't have to do with the stage, I'll most
likely never go back.

I don't really know how to describe what I'm feeling like
right now. Depressed is way to extreme, and lonely doesn't
really fit, cuz it's my own damn fault. I've had people
hit on me (which just seems so wrong in my opinion) and
I've kind of pushed it aside. I really don't have that
much time for a relationship, and I really don't want to
get into something that I don't want and then hurt someone
cuz I was an ass.

Anyway, I'm tired, it's 3:30 and I have an 11:00 class.
Sleepy time for me now.




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