xdruggie

The Xdruggie Files
2002-02-21 07:02:52 (UTC)

Hypocrisy cried the Hypocrite

I despise hypocrisy-especially in myself. I am typing my
personal statement for the social work graduate school
program i am (hopefully) attending. As I write about where
i was with my OD and where i am now, I wonder how close to
death am I? I had a dream the other night that i relapsed
in my sexual sobriety. The guy(s) i ended up with were HIV
(nothing new to me) but this time I became infected. It is
such a possibility if I ever use again. I am going to work in AIDS
and HIV case management...am i strong enough?

I feel like a hypocrite as I type this. Why the hell do I
still want to use?

xd




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