rabidkittie

scars and burns
2002-02-20 20:55:55 (UTC)

poop

All today i have been in my own little bubble. I feel like
i am fake. Nothing about me is real. and i am as annoying
as hell i dont see y i have any friends at all. DO people
ask to do things with me cause they feel sorry for me. I
truely dont know i know i am careless with my words and i
know that a lot of people dont like me but what the hell.
No one really knows me. They cant see inside my head. If
they really knew the mixed up shit inside my head i dont
think they would ever talk to me. Hell sometimes i dont
even like talking to me. Recently i got rejected by a guy
and that hurts alot I ask myself what is so repulsive about
me that makes people hate me. I wish i truely knew who the
hell i am. Wish their was someone to help me. I dont know
what to fuck to do. I love but i am never loved back i
dont hate but i am hated. Why do people hate what they
dont understand. Maybe that is why i hate myself because i
dont understand why i do the things i do. I dont see how
all these girls can jump from one guy to another hell i can
even get a guy. YOu know what whatever i guess i will
continue on and on just like i always do. Fuck who cares
not me and not joel and not anyone. why should they i am
just another teen in an average world with an average
life. I will never amount to anything. NOr will i ever
achieve anything but i am determinded to live i will live.




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