OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2002-02-20 15:50:57 (UTC)

Life in General SUCKS ASS

Life for me isn't really life anymore; it's merely trying
to survive. I've had too many horrible things happen to me
in the past 17 years to care. I just let things happen the
way that they do and don't give them another thought.
Unless it's Jeff. I'm at a certain stage in my life where
all I really want is someone to hold me and kiss me and
tell me how much they love me. I thought I had that, well,
I did have that but I was too stupid to notice and I ------
it up. And for that I am living in morning. I'm morning
the death of the relationship that I thought could only
exist in my head but was actually manifest into flesh by
the man whom I also thought only live in the depths of my
soul. He was the manifestation of all my love all my
passion and all my life, BUT I ------ it up like I always
do. I took away from MYSELF the one thing that I have ever
wanted, the one thing that all my dreams hopes and passions
were about. I took it away from my self like the stupid
selfish ass I am. It's only my fault, and even thought I
try to blame it on him, it's only my fault. He was just
the one to notice my selfishness first and he was just the
one who took the action to change it first. I was about to
confess that I had been a selfish pompous ass, but his
statement was out before I could even explain my change.
Now I am left to dream once again about the perfect
relationship. Only this time it hurts more, knowing that I
had it but I let it slip through the cracks of my own
selfishness. I am the only one to blame for all my pain.


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All You Wanted

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone


(all u wanted michelle branch)