sweetaddiction

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2002-02-19 17:26:06 (UTC)

lets run around in circles till we make ourselves dizzy

printing out pictures...fun stuff.

so...i just got home from school. it was really boring
today and im feeling a bit overwhelmed. i have a bunch of
stuff to do and i havent started half of it. i havent
started any of it really. and...deadlines are coming up and
im just...feeling really late. behind. ugh. my constant
state of feeling actually. it never seems to get any
better, and thats not just in conjunction with school.
i have a research paper to start researching. concerning
homosexual marriage rights. its the biggest most important
grade in the class. and i love my professor and its going
to have to be PERFECT because im anal. and so im freaking
out about it so much that im just putting it off. and off.
and off. i need to get over that. as much as i can anyway.
yes...in that same class i have a paper due a week from
today. that i have not begun either. its a short paper,
only a five paragraph essay. but the structure is SOOO
percise and i dont even understand half of it. and hes
going to be expecting so much from me. and...im just not
feeling good enough i guess. for his expectations. and i do
NOT want to disappoint him. ugh. in my bio of sex class i
have a test tomorrow. that i have not even started studying
for. (and im going to my gf's tonight). and...i have a huge
group project i need to work on. im meeting with my "group"
which consists of a little oriental girl i can barely
understand, and myself. but. at least i HAVE a group now.
better than last week. ugh. and i need to pay more
attention in my hummanities class. ive come to the
conclusion that i RARELY very very very ever never pay
attention in ANY of my classes. none. i write and write
notes and try to stay awake. ive been doing well, but im
not sure if this strategy of cramming at the last minute is
such a good one. but it seems to be the way i work.
and...its better than not doing anything at all.

AGH.

and i have to work today. i wasnt supposed to. and i have
to go in. and i dont even know who im working with and i
hate that so much. i cant plan out my day. like, hey hey
yeah its going to SUCK because im working with blahblah or
hey no its going to be a GREAT day/night because im working
with blahblah.
i just dont know. and i hate not knowing.

shawns cute.

i think im going to sleep because im in a bad mood and i
dont want to be anymore.

i cant sleep so very well anymore. i have a really hard
time getting to sleep. and it sucks...because its my
favorite thing to do.

i love kissing.




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