Guava

kiss me, kill me, hold me, thrill me
2002-02-19 08:27:38 (UTC)

mixed signals or the great confusion

ok, I'm dating the most wonderful guy ever. That is the
given and I don't plan on dumping him or anything! There is
nothing wrong with our relationship right now. Things are
going great.

On Sunday we went for a drive with my best friend in his new
car. That lead to a great day. That evening he and his
girl got into a little argument. They worked it all out and
things were good. That really has nothing to do with my
mixed signals.

Through John I met his friend Dave. Dave and I talk a lot
over IM during the day because he's on while at work. John
is usually away from his computer doing work.

This summer before John and I got together is when I met
Dave. My first impression of Dave was mixed. I knew he had
a dominant personality. I also knew he liked going out and
meeting chicks. The night before in fact he and a buddy had
met up with three girls. His friend had sex with one of
them and Dave did stuff on the couch with the other two.

Dave has told me and I knew this shortly after I first met
him, that if John hadn't been interested in me Dave would
have asked me out. I find this flattering because he is a
good looking guy and does a lot of dating.

I don't mind knowing that Dave thinks I'm good looking. In
fact I really like it. Ok, I have to set this up a little
bit. I go to school a long way away from where Dave and
John live. I see John a lot because either I go there or he
comes here. More often than not he comes here in fact.

I don't see Dave very often, in fact it's like every few
months. It is great to hang out with him because he's fun
just to sit around and watch movies with. John and I go
over there sometimes when I'm home, but not too often. So I
was at Dave's twice this weekend. John and I went over
there on Saturday and watched two movies with Dave. I even
ate some of Dave's precious chinese leftovers.

On Sunday we were back at Dave's with Jay and his girl. We
didn't stay too long though. We didn't even watch one
movie, but we did help Dave put his couch and stuff back
after he cleaned.

Today I came back to school. When I was talking to Dave
online he mentioned that it was good that we got together
this weekend. That is nothing out of the ordinary.

The confusing or mixed signal part is Dave said it was good
that I came so he could remember what my voice sounds like.
Now, there are at least two ways I can take that. The most
obvious to me is that since we chat so much online it's nice
to remember what the other person sounds like. It makes the
chating more friendly...not necessarly in a more than friend
way.

The other way I could take is that he likes me. I know he's
looking for a girl friend and is sort of desperate. He did
mention that he is sort of interested in this girl from
work. We met her over the weekend and she's really nice.
The main thing I see is that she is more agressive than me.
The only turn off for him that was sort of brought up is
that she's divorced.

There is a third option and that is that I am reading way
too much into all of this. I don't know. I find that
sometimes around Dave I say things that are a little out of
character for me. A little more outgoing. That isn't a bad
thing and I think it's making me a stronger person.

Sunday night I called my best friend "pussy whipped" and
Dave said I was his hero for it. I know he was joking and I
certainly was joking. Jay is a little under her finger
though. Today Dave and I touched on the whole motherly
figure thing. I added that as long as they aren't into the
whole adult baby thing then they're fine.

Oh well. I guess I need to work out what I want Dave to be.
Having him as a friend is wonderful and that is what I
want, but why do I read more into things.

I even defended him to Jay. Jay told his girl to watch out
because Dave hits on every girl. I have not really noticed
him hitting on me in person. It's the little things he says
when we chat. He said that he's jealous of John and I. I
don't know if he's simply jealous because we're happy and
John has finally found a girl or if he's jealous because
John found me. I mean he likes the kind of girl I am.

Oh well. I will debate this later. Right now I'm going to
bed. We'll see who/what I dream about.




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