nelly_454

Why Me ?
2002-02-19 04:16:47 (UTC)

*sigh*

sam and i are still apart. i miss her so much. i want to be
with her right now. i have mixed emotions. in one hand i
have the thought that sam was using me and now she is being
a player, but in the other hand, she could be telling the
truth and actually still be in love with me. ??? . god, i
dont know what to think. i love her so much, but she hurt
me soooooooo bad. what do i do? do i keep going after her
and try to get things to work again? do i turn the other
way and let it all go? do i turn nasty and hate her with a
passion? lets see. . . . . i know i cant do the last one, i
could never hate her. im so in love with her. i dont want
to turn on her either, but i dont necessarily want to wait
around for her forever. if i keep going after her, she will
think i am being desperate and obsessive and that will
scare her away. none of the options i listed will work?
what do i do? i guess the only thing i can do is just ride
it out, and hope that we get back together. I love her so
much, its hard to be without her, without knowing that she
is mine, without knowing that i have a best friend and a
lover to talk to anytime that i want. why does God put us
through these things, i just want to be with her. my mom is
very sick, my truck is dead, my grades are going down the
drain because of my sleep disorders, and then sam dumps me.
why does MY life have to be so miserable? i always have
stupid shit happen to me. I just wish there was a way to go
back and prevent all of this from happening. sam dumped me
to go out with another guy though, she made excuses to dump
me, and then went after another. right now, on msn
messenger she is telling me how much she loves me, but is
it true??? im gonna put it on here and all of you who read
this, tell me what you think, please?

i am the french name it means
"Why does the one I love hurt me so bad?"

Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
sam?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
austin?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
ok good youre here
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
how as your day?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
lame
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
oh yeah, what did you do?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
i went to shandielles house and to the mall then hung out
with leon and jesse (the guys at wal mart on my birthday)
then went to kerrys house, woodland park, and to blakes
house
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
what about kyle?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
yea i was with him
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i thought so
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
did shandielle threaten you?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
yes.
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
what did she say?!
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
she told me to leave you the fuck alone and i had no
business talking to you, cuz u arent mine anymore
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
what the hell?!?!
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
when did she say this????
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i talked to her after i got VTOed at work, she told me u
went to the mall with kyle
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
dont believe her and dont listen to her
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
why?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
shes gonna get an earful of bitching later on
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i talked to candice too
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
and?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
nothing
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
um ok
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
so, how r u ?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
tired angry confused and you may not believe this but i
miss you a lot
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
did u figure out things between you and kyle/
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
no
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
oh
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
can i call you in a few minutes?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
why?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
how about 10 minutes
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
because i want to talk to you
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
ok
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
maybe on my cell, my mom might get on the net
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
oh ok
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
im gonna ask you a question, and i want the honest to god
truth, actually two, and u HAVE to tell me the bible,
honest to god, swear on your grave truth. . . . . please?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
ive been telling you the truth the whole time.. but i
promise on every single thing i have that i will tell the
truth ok?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
do you love me?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
honeslty yes i do.. the whole day all i could think about
was you, i feel absolutely terrible for what im doing.. i
know its completely wrong, and i know im hurting you,
honestly i dont kno why im going through with all of this..
you make me feel so different, you make me so happy, and i
was faltering for a little while, and i dont even
understand why.. ive had enough time away from you, i just
do
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
(going on still)
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
don't know what to do.. if i tell kyle no then he will
think im trying to play with him, honestly i feel like im
being a player lately and i feel horrible for it, i feel
horrible for doing all of this to you, you dont need this
or deserve this because you have treated me so right, so
good, that all im doing is hurting the best person in the
world and im hurting myself in the process.. im going to
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
tell aunt sami how much i love you and im going to tell the
world every single truth there is, no matter what.. i love
you so much austin i just cant believe what wrong im
doing.. please NEVER give up on me austin, i love you so
much, im so glad that we have shared so much and i want to
share so much more with you, tell you everything, share
everything with you and be yours completely.. i love y
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
sam?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
you so much austin..... please believe me when i say this,
its so entirely true, i have never meant it as much as i
mean it now, and i didnt believe it was so true until the
past few days.. its only going to be a few weeks on kyle
just so he can think that nothing is wrong and a lot of
other things i cant explain
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
please dont ever give up on me i know what im doing is
wrong and im so very extremely sorry that im putting you
through this horrible thing, this hurt
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
why do you have to date him?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
why cant you come back to me?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
are these all just excuses?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
at first i thought i liked him but now im only going
through with it because i dont want to "play with him"
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
no these are not excuses
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
please believe me austin
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
dont go through with it
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
i mean this with my soul please please believe me
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
tell him u made a mistake
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i want u back
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
can you wait a few days?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
just a few days thats all
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
sam, im not making guarantees, i dont exactly have people
lined up, but i dont want to be second best in your life.
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
seven thats all i need
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
one week is too long, i could be dead by then
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
you are the first best i just need him to think that ive
been thinking really hard about this and i have
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
dont say that austin
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
please dont say that
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
u never know
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i could get in a car accident tomorrow,
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i have a quote, hold on
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
Dream as if you will live forever, Live as if you will die
tomorrow
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
that is my motto
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
austin im begging you just one single week thats all i need
just one please please understand
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
sam, i love you too much to wait
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i need you now
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
u r not obligated to date kyle
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
u must have some feelings for him if ur defending him so
much, and u wont just tell him u made a mistake
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
i cant explain this, if you really want me to, i can
completely lie to you just to make you shut up and listen
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
no, i want the truth, but why do you have to date kyle?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
now its because i dont want him to think im messing with him
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
if u love me sooo much, it doesnt matter what he thinks
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
i know you are thinking im messing with you, when im not
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
god dammit austin
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
dont get mad
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
fine i fucking hate you you are such a fucking asshole
there are you happy?? just for you i hate you ok???
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
no
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
please dont say that
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
sam?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
what
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i believe you, i just dont know why you have to date him,
but i do believe you
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
no you dont
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i swear on my grandfathers grave
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
if you diss that, u r not thinking clearly
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
i believe you
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
can i call you?
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
right now?
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
preferably
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
ok
Pourquoi l'un I aime-t-il le mal je si mauvais? says:
I Love You.
why doesn't anyone believe me? says:
i love you too

so, what do you think? is it the truth, is it fake?
hit me with the answer.

Austin


Ad:0
Try a new drinks recipe site