Queen Bee

Raves
2002-02-18 08:00:05 (UTC)

maybe its love.

today at my b/f house i really, really, really, really
didnt wnat to leave. we were laying in each other arms and
it wasd the best place ever and i was so sad about leaving
i almost freakin cried. I dont knwo exactly what that means
mel thinks i might love hima nd i might i really dont know
yet. it might just be lust because i want him so much right
now its not even funny. but i also feel something
else.because he means so much to me, more than myself. but
i do not know what it all means, maybe its love maybe it
infatuation maybe hes the guy im gonna spend the rest of my
life with, maybe the relationship will end tomorrow (knock
on wood)i dunno. but all i know is that he treats me like
an actual person, not like something he has to put up with.
an obligation, like i was just their for the title. so he
could say he has a g/f. he an ass anyways, he deserves to
be alone. and he deserves the pain he gets from his next
g/f. the time before when me and seth went out, he treated
me better even though he was still together with his other
g/f who is in cali., and he still treated me better than
donny ever did. i really have no clue what all these
feelings mean, love, lust, like, infatuation, pure and
utter madness, i dunno maybe its a cold. i really dont knwo
but whatever it is, i hope i figure it out soon, before i
go completley insane.




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