Timzgurl

TimzGurl's Lil World
2002-02-17 22:44:32 (UTC)

2/9/2002

As I go about throughout this world
And all the things within it,
School, the mall, my neighborhood
I see other people
Smiling, talking, laughing
I see my friends go out and have fun
At the movies, at dances, at parties
And as I do
I feel the distance, between myself and
Everyone else
GROW
I feel like I'm missing something
An inside joke everyone knows,
But me...
There is a clar barrier between
Me and the world
I beat my fists upon it
But it will not break!
I beat on it till I bleed
But it remains, taunting me
And whenever I try
To break this wall
To reach out to others for
Help, understanding, companionship,
I am pulled back
By agonizing arms which hold me,
Wrenching me down
Shattering my frail attempts
On a hard cold slab of doubt and broken dreams
"Let ME go," I plea
Amidst the silence of my thoughts
I hear a voice
"Don't go," it says
The voice is quiet, alone, afraid
"You don't know what's out there..."
My blood freezes at the sound of it
Absolute terror grips my soul
"Who are you?!" I scream
But I know who it is,
And that is what scares me the most
I turn
To see what is holding me back,
To see wha tis keeping me from
Reaching out to others
I see, and I gasp at the horror of it
I see, what monstrous thing clenches me.
My breath escapes,
And I stand there,
I stand there staring upon my own
Frightened face
Clutching me with shaking hands
I fall silent...




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