Christine

Visions Of Life
2002-02-13 04:17:23 (UTC)

I Am A Bingo Hooker *laughs*

Damn, I swear, i am no such thing.. I just like playing
bingo.. especially when my grandma pays... yeah... *hides in
shame*

Hmmm.. I have been quite happy lately. Still havnt found a
new job tho I havnt really been looking or trying.. I bet my
manager wants me the fuck out of there.. *laughs* I really
dont think that. I think he forgets I even exist.. Thats
fine by me.

The wandering crazy guy is in a locked unit. Finally! No
more wandering madness!

The woman who fell is doing fine. Last night I drank
chocolate milk with her in her room at 2am. She was sneaking
to the kitchen for a midnight snack even tho the doctor said
she couldnt walk alone till her appointment in the morning.
She invited me in so we chatted for a few minutes with our
little milk cartons. It was like third grade all over again
except with a 100 year old student and me wearing scrubs..

I am on a learning spree. I want to learn everything, just
for recreation. Thats my downfall. I want to learn but dont
want a "career" in any of it.

My brother is so adorable. And such a pain in the ass. I
swear, I sound like one of those crazy parents in the midst
of their post natal psychosis. Okay, Tyler has this alphabet
book. Under A, one of the pictures is an abicus(spelling?).
She we ask Tyler where the abicus is. He is confused. Then
he smiles and blows us a kiss.. Have a kiss.. abicus.. Its
so sickingly adorable. Tyler is so gonna kick my ass when he
is older cuz i plan on calling him Ty-ger or something
stupid like that. Right now I am his goddess. I love it.

Is it just me or do I think and act differently then most
females? I sometimes feel like I think like a man but am
more sensitive and emotional. I could just be on some weird
lifetime time release drug and not know it. I just feel
different. I cant even get along with most females because I
want to slap them for their ignorance.

I had dinner wit my parents tonight and spent a few hours
with my stepdad. I love him more then my real dad and that
seems wrong. Its just that he acts like I wish my real dad
would. He loves me, advises me, disciplines me, all of that
fatherly crap. Id wish that he was my real dad but that
would fuck lots of peoples lives up.. This whole double
father thing does present some issues. One of them is when I
refer to my mom and step dad as my "parents" around my dad.
Id say it upsets him but I cant tell. He is closed to me. He
wont even look at me when he talks to me. Makes it easier to
lie to me I guess.. Anyways..

Im in a weird mood. I had this thought earlier but I forget
what it was about. "If I lived in mid-world, Id hafta
worry about deformed midgets throwing aged grenades at me
instead of psychos with guns"

Well, Im off to work