nickelback88

outkastofsociaty
2002-02-12 04:30:30 (UTC)

doubt

recently i met this girl she seemed to be the sweetest girl
i had ever met i loved and trusted her i would have done
any thing for her but she betrayed my trust aqnd spir in my
face and for some reason thats not wehats bothering me and
i dont knwo what is im so confused right know its like i
have no emotions no matter what is said or done to me i
dont care today a bunch of people tried tio make a joke of
me and i didnt eaven care i didnt let them but usually i
get mad when peopl try but this time it was like i didnt
care i didnt make a fuss im alwaise tired and i dont knwo
why i sleep for 12 or 13 hours a day and all i do when i
get up is go back to sleep i get pounding head aches but
they go away just as fast as they came on the things that i
thought were so important i dont really care about any more
and the things that didnt bother me before make me angry
know i mean for the longest time i didnt care that no one
acnoleged my existance but know i find my self clining to
people that i dont like but becuse they pretend to care i
hang on hoping that maybe some one will come along that
does lover and care about me its like im busy on the out
side but all alone on the inside and im waiting for some
one to come along and save me but i think the person is me
and i dont know how to save my self and its liek im
learning how but i desperatly want some one here with me
that i can rely on to catch me when i do fall down because
i know its going to happen i feel it taking over more and
moe every day like a dark cloud is growing in my body and
it keeps getting bigger and bigger and its not ever going
to stop untill i kill it but i dont know how and i need
hellp but there is no one that will im so stressed and
angry but over nothing im so confused




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